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Came close a couple times. Usually things would fall apart pretty quickly. Lot of the time it's just out of the blue, nothing changes but they decide to ghost me. Other times there was just 'something' missing and we just wouldn't click. Once though, I had one that lasted a couple years but we never met up in person. Didn't seem like we were going to be meeting up any time soon either, which really soured the relationship as it went on. It started nice enough, and I was glad for a short time to have someone. I wanted to do anything and everything I could to make her happy, spoil her rotten to the best of my abilities too. Heck she even said she hit the jackpot with me. Unfortunately she had a pretty crappy home life, and because of it got more and more nasty as things went on. It didn't take long to realize we weren't even in a real relationship, at some point I became her personal therapist while paying out the butt for the privilege. Didn't help I asked her once to only say she loved me if she really meant it, so she never said it again. What was really frustrating was I knew all too well this was as good as it was ever going to get. I had a lot of bad luck before her, and even worse luck after that. That alone made me want to stick it out, but it was a terrible place to be in. I wanted to be as supportive as I could, but it's hard when the other person doesn't care. I tried breaking things off with her, only for her to talk me out of it, then do it herself not long later. We tried being friends but she ghosted me a few months later, right when I needed someone the most in fact. A year later she gets back in touch, we chat for a bit, but as soon as I mention I'm single she ghosts me again and I haven't heard from her since. I did meet up with someone from this site once though. We became friends, and had lunch once. We never got together though because while I think she was interested in me, she blew off our first plans to meet up after getting drunk and banging her friend, and then went into details about some other guys she got busy with. Call me weird, but that's not exactly the sort of thing I want to hear/know about from someone interested in me. Funny enough, something like that happened with another girl from this site that was chasing after me. We lived really near by, and were making plans to meet up, next thing I know she's telling me all about the guy she just slept with. Didn't hear from her again after that. Really good artist too, kept a photo she drew on my page. All in all I don't exactly have high hopes of things working out with anyone from here, especially not these days. Just doesn't seem like it's meant to be.

Some stuff to look out for might be a change in behavior and making excuses to avoid you. Things like staying out late with friends or working late all the time. unexplained expenses, coming home smelling weird, and so on.

https://youtu.be/ooguQWAcpQ0?si=xojJqXwfouds_lmm https://youtu.be/Tb9fkGCCV1o?si=A5dXWjXZFQCzEya7 These two songs. Faced with the world telling me it's impossible for a narcissist to change. I'm moving like it is and I'm getting higher and closer to my dreams. With God all things are possible.

I miss the cats in the philippines there was so many of them and they were so friendly. I should of played with them more.

The voices call me pure evil. Omegalol that's not gonna work no more I know how to validate my heart now. They can't make me view myself as pure evil and lose touch with my own heart anymore. Omegalol they pissed I'm still getting stronger neither narcissism or schizophrenia can stop God's plan and purpose for my life. The truth is I'm a walking success story. A testament to God transformative power. I'm divinely confined so the works of God can be shown through me and they big mad. But, I trust in my Heavenly Father Supreme Authority over the Earth and Creation. And, I thank him for Grace, Mercy, Favor, Protection, and Guidance. Bruh they didn't want me to see myself so bad. I know the voices and the devil mad and they hate me and the God I serve. I acknowledge my darkness and bring it into the light. There's a difference between being pure evil and having both light and darkness within. They can't fool me. They just want me to sink into despair that there's nothing good about me that everything I do is a abomination that I'm to ugly for God and others. Typical demon tactics. But, God gave me discernment to see through that. I'm passed the point of worrying about myself because my God has never failed me. Man I'm Up Big following Jesus. You just don't stop winning. All Glory be to you Jesus.