Branden

I give up on trying too hard for others to notice me. Everything I do now is for me and only me. Not even celebrating Mother’s Day because my mom and I ceased communication. She told me she wishes a good life for me and that was it. Been battling depression off and on lately…life hasn’t felt this lonely in a long while not since Florida. Anytime I try to make new connections with someone I fuck it up by being “too available” despite always busy with gym or work or going out with friends. Even though I got friends (for which I am grateful for especially now) I still feel lonely. Antidepressants don’t work with me and only thing that makes me happy is gym progress now. Looking in the mirror when I wake up to see how far along I’m getting. I want a family that I never got. To be cared about like I never been. To not feel like trash finally and to be loved. I’m just venting this and irl I’m okay. I promise I’m not doing anything stupid. Just wish and pray that my dreams come true one day.

Why are women suddenly chanting they want chubby guys over on twitter? Then they say they want sweet and soft chubby guys rather than boring gym bros?? I was literally fat a year ago Whatchu yall mean???? Make up your minds