Spicy Mommy ®

Something I said to a close friend recently through text: "Even if you repeat yourself, that's often how the healing process often is, very repetitive. Somedays may be better than others, and on the other end, sometimes you may have to repeat to yourself step 1 on how to process something, but even when it feels like you aren't doing something, you ARE. Sometimes your progress doesn't come as quickly as you want it, heck, you may not even see results yet. But this moment is important (yes, even the repetitive stuff) for you because you are taking the broken fragments of your mind/emotions/spirit and learning to put into practice healthier habits or word practices. It's like if you're used to talking yourself down, and I mean that in the sense of verbally abusing or mistreating yourself, and then you go to therapy to actually talk about those internal struggles against yourself. The therapist might advise that for every negative thing, try to find-even if it's just one-something positive to say about yourself or your day...even if you may not necessarily believe it at the time. The therapist gives you the advice not necessarily to give you a false hope and say that you thinking or speaking more positively will immediately cause those thoughts or unhealthy habits to cease, but it DOES open up a doorway for you to begin to unlearn those unhealthy ways. The therapist isn't giving you the advice to give a permanent solution necessarily, but it's kind of like a prescription to fend off old habits. Those thoughts or issues may still be there, but if you begin to acknowledge the way you feel or think about yourself, current situation or even a people/person in your life, and then apply (in our case as Believers) scriptures, prayer or even just words that give life to your situation rather than death, it can begin to have a more positive impact. It's just that in order to truly recognize these unhealthy things, on top of learning how to deal with it, sometimes you need to go through the nitty gritty of going through a repetitive process of these things to truly know how to best approach it. If that makes sense? Basically what I'm saying ultimately is this: even when you feel like you aren't making progress, it actually is being made, it's just not yet perceived."

@gabriel_true Day 141: I'm eating spicy noodles for dinner tonight, I can't wait. Of course, I'm eating more than just noodles though, there'll be meat in it, peanuts, lettuce and kimchi. I know that I've said it before, but I just love kimchi and lettuce, you can never go wrong with lettuce and cabbage. - I Also Have Been Snacking On One of My Favorite Snacks Recently; Bread: Lettuce Mommy