Invited a friend to go to a movie marathon with me tomorrow. Plan on watching Mortal Kombat, He-Man, Backrooms, and maybe Scary Movie if we're not worn out by the other 3. https://www.businesstoday.com.my/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image_2026-05-08_001222509-696x870.jpg

Embarrassing when you realize you forgot to pay a bill. Luckily the insurance company didn't cancel on me or charge a late fee for being a week late. Wondering why I had extra cash to spend, haha!

https://youtu.be/Oj3gIqTsOXc?si=xy5TwuAig7D570U0 Artist: Seal Song: Crazy

im waiting on the newest chapters of March comes in like a lion ㅠㅠ. I also read "As a Reincarnated Aristocrat, I'll Use My Appraisal Skill to Rise in the World"

1 Timothy 1:15 15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. Paul said he is the worst or the chief in other translations to show there is no limit to God's grace and mercy. That no one is beyond redemption. Paul before his conversion persecuted the chruch beyond measure and actively tried to destroy it. But, God redeemed him. The story of paul let's me know it's gonna be alright even as a narcissist because paul said it is trustworthy and deserves full acceptance that Jesus came into the world to save sinners of whom I am the worst. I have trouble believing Jesus could love a narcissist especially with the schizophrenia voices trying to cause anxiety in my heart. But, I accept 1 Timothy 1:15 to be the truth. And, feel relieved. Not because I look down on paul and think myself better than paul before his conversion but because I also see myself as the worst sinner in my mind. In the Jesus Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector Luke 18:9–14 the two men went to the Temple to pray... The Pharisee: Stood proudly and boasted about his good deeds, using the opportunity to look down on others. The Tax Collector: Stood at a distance, refused to even look up, beat his chest in sorrow, and prayed, "God, have mercy on me, a sinner." Why he was justified: To be "justified" means to be declared righteous before God. The tax collector's prayer worked because it was an act of genuine repentance and humility. He acknowledged that he could not earn his way into God's favor through his behavior. Instead of just reciting a magical phrase, his actions demonstrated complete reliance on God's grace rather than his own good works.Jesus concluded the parable by noting that the tax collector went home justified—or made right with God—while the self-righteous Pharisee did not. I keep thinking that more self righteous I become the more God will love me. If i do everything right I can earn his love. Cause I'm to scared to just admit I'm a sinner and say I need mercy and ultimately rely on his grace and mercy cause I'm to scared he will forsake me. But, God said he will not forsake thee. Human effort alone cannot make a person righteous before God. Instead, righteousness is a gift of God's grace, applied to a believer through faith in Jesus Christ. I understand I can't earn it that I'm totally reliant on his grace and mercy. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. I am the worst a narcissist but if what paul said is True then I need not be afraid. I can't look at myself and say God but what about my good deeds as if they could make me righteous before God all I can ask for is mercy for a sinner. The Pharisee trusted his performance the tax collector trusted God character and mercy. Paul confidence wasn't I finally became righteous enough it was Jesus is merciful enough. Paul final identity wasn't the persecutor the denier it was Apostle Paul of Christ Jesus. Narcissist isn't my final identity to Jesus I understand that now.

https://youtu.be/-czQk--q2Ng?si=-BAnyaLvAqCBG2ru https://youtu.be/WtYLZgCEnwQ?si=j2iyWpKgoH-lLdWq https://youtu.be/DHwK5FYyQl0?si=eoWC4y2b-s7-w6BM https://youtu.be/mFPxBWUgmeo?si=H51t246TL95QDtd- https://youtu.be/jBSUJwTXuwg?si=E_-zGL8f_MlSvBHL

My show is onnn https://youtu.be/USUvx7R5inU?si=08PMnZSqMeN7hzZd

it’s weird female and male that like spending free time watering plants and making art and they are 40+ and never dated. Or doing something like that. I might as well be a tree lol.