The mountain is moving. Thank you Jesus T_T. I was down on my faith. But, still holding on tight to it. When my pastor message me to check on me. I told him I'm holding on I need a mountain moved and I'm trying to surrender. I just vented to him and told him I'm alright. After that I had a change of heart and the thing I had no strength to do before I have the strength to do now. I felt the chains loosening right after talking to my pastor. The chains keeping me from actions in love. Just because I'm a narcissist that doesn't feel anything love is not always a feeling it's a action. And, the chains keeping me from acting is loosening and Imma run away with the slack and remember what's it's like to be free for even a moment. Hallelujah God is good. Mountains do move. It wasn't my strength that moved it I tell you that because I had none. All Glory to the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit. Surrender leads to freedom just a moment of slack on the chains that bind me I know God is for me. https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8b1SP9G/

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(1:59 AM Sun.) I was randomly thinking while I was standing in my kitchen about what I would write if I published childrens books. I mean, there's so many cute or silly stories you could do, but I really love teaching kids about more serious topics just put in a kid-friendly way. So, with that thought it mind I began to imagine a story of a little Castor Bean (where you get castor oil from). It would be a bean with cute/silly looking googly eyes drawn on it or something to really make it interesting for kids, but for those who may not know, Castor Beans have a high chance to be very dangerous to humans and animals. It contains a substance in it called Ricin, and that substance can be highly toxic and poisonous to those that don't know how to handle it properly, which bring me to the point of my story. The point of my Castor Bean story was how this little bean has been tossed around from person to person, all the wrong people at that, who always mishandled it, mistreated it or told the bean what it was based on how they perceived it due to their mishandling of it, so when (in it's defense) the little bean secreted poison and toxins, the people mishandling it threw it aside and told the Castor Bean that it was a bad one. But, along the way in the story, the Castor Bean runs into a kind herbalist, probably an older man/woman that immediately recognizes the bean for what it is and the healing properties it holds, which starts the next chapter on this herbalist showing the bean what it IS and COULD be, rather than simply telling it what it is as if it's law. Along the way, the Castor Bean moves from the herbalist to many different kinds of people, some of these people very kind but not as knowledgeable of the bean as the herbalist was, but the point of these other people is: they are willing to get to know the bean first before making preconceived notions about it. The point of the story is about many different things: how sometimes people like to tell you what you are rather than trying to show you who you could be (they never cherish the good you have, they only want to see the negative); how even though you may run into very bad people, if you allow yourself to remain open to it (the bean wasn't insistent on seeing just the bad in others because their circumstances sometimes did show them bad) you can see the good around you; it teaches that hanging around the right people grows/challenges you in ways you never expected, and that there is good and bad inside everyone. Even the Castor Bean itself still DID have the potential/means to harm others, but when the bad is all that is nurtured, that's the fruit you will see, and when the good tends to be nurtured in someone, they are more likely to do good as well. Of course that's a rough draft of the idea, it would be fleshed out more if I ever wrote a kids book, but remember to nurture the good inside yourself as well! Yes, there absolutely is/can be people in your life that positively impact you, but don't just count on them to be/do good, do it yourself so that it's not just done out of obligation, but love. ❤️

Finished watching the final episode of Gnosia tonight. Even with this season being stacked with good stuff, I have a feeling this will be like a top 3 pick for me easily.