@talmerie1sback Late night talk show ahh thread lmao

I'm back on the wagon. I realized I have hard feelings about my situation. Narcissism a man with no heart to feel empathy no heart to drive him forward just thoughts and cognitive empathy. Schizophrenia tormented for taking a stand. I was at peace for a few days cause I decided not to speak truth anymore and stop trying to get closer to God so the voices left me alone but they broke the peace just because I thought about existence that pissed me off now I'm on they ass and back on the wagon. I see why they say don't let your situation determine how you view God. I accepted that a narcissist might not be a existence that can make it to heaven. I always had hard feelings over thoughts of hell because why create me with no heart and say those of God has love in them. That's the voices number 1 target why create me with such a flaw. But, it's all good. It is what it is. I may go to hell. That's fine instead of connecting with God on some mad shit. I can connect with him on some thanks shit. It's not all bad. No hard feelings. Things look pretty bleak from my perspective narcissist anomaly no heart also pride = hell. I only heard of one case of my kind getting saved it's almost like he don't want us. What are these bois gonna do without a heart. They need someone. But, it's all good. No hard feelings. Even though it's bleak whatever my fate I can talk to him without any HARD FEELINGS get it STONE HEART. People ask God for help and when that help doesn't come they get hard feelings over time they think why ask for help again he not gonna show up because they have hard feelings. If you a believer I challenge you to ask for help again and again without any of those hard feelings. Hold no grudge against God cause he holds no grudge against you. This will do wonders for my mind always thinking God has a grudge against me. I look to God constantly with a RENEWED MIND GET IT. THE RENEWAL OF YOUR MIND. Because you can ask for help again just like he didn't let you down because you have no HARD FEELINGS which to draw experience and feelings from stopping a complete renewal. I'm not strong enough to follow Jesus so for that I might burn but I don't have to hate God because of that. I think I'm on the team because the voices always say they gonna cut my head off and to keep my head down. They should of left me alone now I'm back on the wagon.

I've went outside for 4 days straight now when I haven't been out the house for more than 6 months before that and the sunshine's burning my eyes

My most loyal uncle told me quote... "I do not like putting labels on peoples. I know labels are very necessary to help us identify different substances, places, and things in our lives however, I believe it is wrong to try to put people into groups and then adhere a label to them as God meant us all to be individuals as different. he created each as a snowflakes That fall from the sky or the grains of sand that lay on the oceans floor. So to discount people's identities characteristics and individualism and put them all into different groups and categories and place a label on them I do not think it is good"

(1:31 PM Sun.) Happy November 1st everyone! I hope everyone's month is starting off great? It's my second oldest sister's Birthday today, so I'm chillin' upstairs with my family while the Birthday girl scrapbooks and draws (she's an artist). Other than that, the end of October was definitely interesting. It's interesting because I ate a cricket yesterday...my sister got them from a store cause she always wanted to taste them, so I decided to try one because if she does something, there's a high chance that I'll try it too. The flavor of crickets were sour cream and onion, and...they surprisingly weren't bad, just very bland, like the shell of a sunflower seed in taste. It's surprising I even held one, let alone eating a cricket, cause if you were able to see me irl you'd quickly see how terrified I am of nature in general lol. I can at least say I tried a cricket. But, you'll NEVER see me trying or holding a spider, dead or alive.

Off to Orlando for the official Sonic the Hedgehog Live Concert! I was super bummed a couple years ago when I missed the Sonic Symphony tour. Been busting my butt working and handling family matters, but tonight I rock the night away! I think I may have posted about this earlier, but anyone else checking tgis concert out at one of its locations? https://sonicliveinconcert.com/

100% what @wei_ying said, because if you are having such high standards that aren’t met yourself to equal it out then you are going to fight an uphill battle of disappointment after disappointment. Proof is when I was 308lbs and kept going for super attractive women when, I, myself didn’t even meet the same standards I set up. Led to me being cheated on multiple times, situationship, abuse, and trauma. It’s best to focus on yourself and what makes you happy gaining some progress. Then eventually they will just pop up from what I have been told.

I just carried these bois. I got a Savage aswell lol first savage back since playing I'm de rusting. Granger that guy they double team me in my lane and still couldn't stop me.

The people who say "everyone's a little autistic" or "everyone's a little neurodivergent" are the same type of obnoxious people who go drink beer and when they hear James Talarico say Jesus would flip tables in the Supreme Court, they would say, "He should have done that in the first place."

today I did my standard 100 pushup (standard, diamond, archer sets of 10) and the standard 60 pull ups. However today I decided to break my pull ups into sets of 10 instead of sets of 5 to build up my muscular endurance. I really want to be able to do 20 in a row some day. Today I managed to get it all done in 25 minutes so I shaved off 5 minutes! I really need to integrate sets of squats in my workout but I really hate doing them...