Everyone operating with some level of the curse blindness. Part of the curse broke when I smoked weed and my ex gf said you not as good as you think you are and my consciousness shattered literally and I gained awareness of myself for the first time. Another part of the curse broke when I got schizophrenia and the voices unveiled my darkness to me in a way I couldn't ignore or stay blind to it cause they bombarded my mind with it. Though they wasn't trying to help they just wanted me to sink into the abyss.

I don't know if I should just give up even trying to find that someone at this point...sigh...i can never find one that isn't with someone else already or just doesn't live in the same wave length as or at least accept my wave length as I would accept there's.

I think I improved her open mouth art but it's a real struggle. I think it's good enough for now. I might work on her arms next. The sleeves are supposed to be transparent showing her arms underneath but right now it's just fake transparent and not lined up correctly.

Got a new laptop cause mine blew up a day before AION 2 playtest. This new laptop doesn't even get hot I tried cyber punk with path tracing overdrive and frame generation and I can basically run cyber punk at maxed settings. The bottom and back of the laptop has vents like I never seen before. Anyway, AION 2 sep 30th wohoo!

1. Affirmations 2. Quality Time 3. Touch