So I found a unique way to start practicing my Japanese again. I went to a japanese V-Tuber's twitch channel while they were streaming their gameplay and I just typed in 'konnichiwa'. Apparently she even had an auto-translate to japanese hiragana bot in her channel which was really cool. The VTuber was happy that I was trying to learn japanese and taught me some really important phrases I'll share with you guys: 「って感じ」 (tte kanji) — extremely common in casual Japanese. It means something like “that kind of thing,” “that’s the vibe,” “something like that,” or “basically.” Another phrase she taught me was「知らんけど」(shiran kedo). It literally comes out roughly as “I don’t know, though”, but in natural conversation it’s more like: - “...but I dunno.” - “...I think, anyway.” - “...don’t quote me on that.” - “...or something like that.”

Everyone operating with some level of the curse blindness. Part of the curse broke when I smoked weed and my ex gf said you not as good as you think you are and my consciousness shattered literally and I gained awareness of myself for the first time. Another part of the curse broke when I got schizophrenia and the voices unveiled my darkness to me in a way I couldn't ignore or stay blind to it cause they bombarded my mind with it. Though they wasn't trying to help they just wanted me to sink into the abyss.

I don't know if I should just give up even trying to find that someone at this point...sigh...i can never find one that isn't with someone else already or just doesn't live in the same wave length as or at least accept my wave length as I would accept there's.

I think I improved her open mouth art but it's a real struggle. I think it's good enough for now. I might work on her arms next. The sleeves are supposed to be transparent showing her arms underneath but right now it's just fake transparent and not lined up correctly.

1. Affirmations 2. Quality Time 3. Touch