I'm gonna try surrendering as best as I know how. God said not by might nor by power but by the spirit. I have the spiritual task to love people. But, the mountain of self won't move. I have people waiting on me to get better. I accept I can't move this mountain. So I'm trusting God to move it because I know he can. Jesus tells his disciples, "For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you. The spiritual task to love others feels impossible with my own strength. This mountain called narcissism is in my way. I hack at the mountain and move pieces at a time but I'm tired of hacking away at this mountain with my own strength. I need help. I try to tunnel through the mountain to meet others needs some times I make it sometimes the weight of the mountain collapses my path and the rocks become harder almost like the moutain is my heart... stone always blocking my path. I need this mountain of self & narcissism to move. God says I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh". I'm tired of dealing with stubborn stones. I can't wait any longer I'm tired how hard the stone is. I need help so I'm finally gonna try my hardest to surrender to God people are waiting on me. Stone is resistant to change. Instead of using all my strength to make a path everytime I trust God will move the whole mountain. Somethings deeply wrong with me and I don't think I can fix it with might and power I think it's only by his spirit. Lord have mercy on me. I need that heart of flesh that changes.

I miss going to conventions. So imma make it a point to go to ACEN this year. I WAS thinking about C2E2 buut it's short notice and I don't really have the time to get to it this year. But yeah on Acen! If you're gonna be there as well, let me know! Meet ya boi Halo and we'll hang out, take pictures it'll be a blast.

@gabriel_true Day 148: I had pizza today! Do you understand how much I love pizza, and how happy eating it made me? The answer: very. I also got hummus to go with the rest of my Birthday bread that I got as a gift, I mean, I can eat the bread by itself completely, but I really adore hummus as well. I love it's taste so much that I can eat it by itself lol. - Hooray! For Hummus: Ying-Ying

Look, I know a lot of people had it rough with the surge in grocery prices, but grocery stores are STRUGGLING with their "dynamic pricing". Kroger stock is only up 22% this year! Can't you people just think about the poor shareholders???

Okay round 2 happened today. After 4 days of rest, I ran another 5k and I managed to do the whole thing without slowing to a walk or cramping side. 35 minutes. My best was 32. I'm still at a beginner level but I really want see under 30 minutes.

I dont like the kind of people who are unwilling to apologize to children or service workers. Apologies are not some act of humiliation or deference. It is the willingness to acknowledge that you expect better of yourself and sincerely regret your actions and/or their impact on others.

Prejudice/discrimination against neurodiversity/people with invisible disabilities is often seen as more acceptable than against race/ethnicity, due to most of society only preferring familiarity and appearance and sometimes disguise "fear and hatred" as "accountability". One group of people who label neurodivergents as the overused buzzword "narcissists" are usually job colleagues or just nobodies. Another group who undo or never use that same overused buzzword are either family, friends, etc.. Whether people are correct or incorrect, it is considered rude to use the same buzzword. The buzzword became very trendy right when MAGA Cult revealed themselves and began falling apart.

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