I rely on anayzling people to let the little pieces of them change me for coherence sake. Many narcissists struggle to see themselves without distortions so the best method we have is to see ourselves in other people and through other people. We watch your every reaction because people are the puzzle pieces to ourselves. For some reason we can't complete the puzzle of self alone without distortions. So we rely on others judgment and validation of us to see ourselves. Most narcissist would like that judgment fixed to there same upheld beliefs about themselves. They will try to manipulate you by only telling you information about themselves that paints them in a good light. And, they will leave out the rest of the bad information. No matter how much they coherence to reality and your coherence to reality suffers. It's all the primal instinct to defend the mask of perfection. We go to such greats lengths to defend the mask of perfection cause it protects us from acknowledging our mistakes and exposing the shame of who we are and feeling the shame of who we are and being seen a lesser than we envision. Though thanks to my fighting narcissim publicly here on this site and not receiving likes or validation for fighting the good fight that most narcissists don't care about I cried and realized that no one has to validate my heart and I only could. I switched from external validation to internal validation during that realization at my lowest. I'm glad nobody validated me because that is what ultimately set me free from needing others love, attention, and validation. Not that i don't need people i just depend on them differently. I expose the shame of who I am because I'm not trying to defend the mask. For a narcissist I have a strong inclination to being truthful and vulnerable over being cool and seen as more or superior rather lesser. Though that inclination doesn't always win out. The primal instinct to defend the mask of perfection is strong. Also, I have a woman who loves me for who I am so the selective pressure of getting a woman won't be the demise of my authentic self. And, because of that I have no inclination to be cool here just truthful and vulnerable to understand narcissism even if I have to be viewed as lesser even if my weakness makes others cringe and hate me. I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. But, that is half true for me. It's a battle to expose who I am. Edit: I now have a internal identity from validating my heart that others can refine. Instead of others views being the crux of my identity. I went from borrowed identity to internal identity.

@meisterman1985 You sure are different. And, that's not always a bad thing. It's hard to digest what you wrote because of the way you see the world is a little different. But, I'll try over the next few days. I understand the not knowing whether to fit in or not in society. Because what exactly are you fitting into something that is already broken and leads people astray. Anyway, don't be to hard on yourself I understand calling yourself a narcissist so to not be as complacent as Trump and keep track of secret sins. I just hope and pray you validate the good in your heart. And, know that your not a monster your just different. Everyone has darkness and everyone has good so don't get lost in the darkness like your not worth anything. Your life is precious. I'll try to digest more later. That's a hard label that you choose to carry if you ever need help you can ask me anything. Maybe I can share some of the weight. Edit: Thanks for sharing this with me.

@gabriel_true Day 164: ❤️ - Nothing Much To Say Today, I Just Love You: Wei-Wei

-=New Anime This Season =- Witch Hat Atelier The Warrior Princess and the Barbaric King Daemons of the Shadow Realm An Observation of My Fiancee Who Calls Herself a Villainess I Made Friends with the Second Prettiest Girl in My Class Liar Game I Want to End this Love Game Marriagetoxin The Strongest Job is Apparently Not a Hero or a Sage, but an Appraiser Petals of Reincarnation ...and others...

Aria the Animation https://myanimelist.net/images/anime/2/77620.jpg Rating: 4/5 Stars Aired: Fall 2005 Genre: Slice of Life, Iyashikei, Feel good slow life I feel a need to throw this one out there, but it's definitely not for everyone. Still they did a really good job with the feel good, slow life, heartwarming story that soothing and relaxing. Think cute girls rowing gondolas in Venice Italy, and that's pretty much the setting of the story. It did well enough to go for on for 6 seasons. If you've seen "Amanchu!", then it very much has the same feel. As the both have the same Original Creator, and Producer. But that one is 10 years old itself.

i confess ive eated meat on a friday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDN0xX-GhBM

At least the 1st one got good taste LOL. Todd Howard, man... you have truly, truly done it again. Even the clankers are gettin their 3rd copies of Oblivion.

Woah, woah, we doin this? Aight. We need at least ONE barefoot girl. Or... barehoof.. for that matter. That is my one and ONLY request.

Big Sister × Mother https://youtu.be/vr2rgt9kaXE?si=owYAP-ta9LbUEpQA Mother × Big Sister https://youtu.be/kPyagbk1XhA?si=p8XPBLA01_K33ASq

Just creating this topic so everyone can hopefully find someone they connect with :) If you're looking for love, feel free to post here!

Do not pet birds along their backs. that is where a lot of sexual stimulus areas are and it will confuse the bird into thinking that you are trying to seduce them. Only pet birds on their heads.