https://youtu.be/ooguQWAcpQ0?si=xojJqXwfouds_lmm https://youtu.be/Tb9fkGCCV1o?si=A5dXWjXZFQCzEya7 These two songs. Faced with the world telling me it's impossible for a narcissist to change. I'm moving like it is and I'm getting higher and closer to my dreams. With God all things are possible.

At your lowest you find out who you truly are.

I miss the cats in the philippines there was so many of them and they were so friendly. I should of played with them more.

The voices call me pure evil. Omegalol that's not gonna work no more I know how to validate my heart now. They can't make me view myself as pure evil and lose touch with my own heart anymore. Omegalol they pissed I'm still getting stronger neither narcissism or schizophrenia can stop God's plan and purpose for my life. The truth is I'm a walking success story. A testament to God transformative power. I'm divinely confined so the works of God can be shown through me and they big mad. But, I trust in my Heavenly Father Supreme Authority over the Earth and Creation. And, I thank him for Grace, Mercy, Favor, Protection, and Guidance. Bruh they didn't want me to see myself so bad. I know the voices and the devil mad and they hate me and the God I serve. I acknowledge my darkness and bring it into the light. There's a difference between being pure evil and having both light and darkness within. They can't fool me. They just want me to sink into despair that there's nothing good about me that everything I do is a abomination that I'm to ugly for God and others. Typical demon tactics. But, God gave me discernment to see through that. I'm passed the point of worrying about myself because my God has never failed me. Man I'm Up Big following Jesus. You just don't stop winning. All Glory be to you Jesus.

I had that dream you’re at work, and nothing is going right. No matter how hard you try, stuff just keeps becoming a bigger and bigger mess. Then you wake up absolutely exhausted from working all night, for free, and you have to get up and go to work for real and work even more. I feel like I should charge them for all those overtime hours I worked in my sleep.