never fitting in...

I never really fit in anywhere so I dont even try to anymore. Your best bet is to just be yourself an communicate with who ever you want or find somewhat interesting. Ive tried the group thing, my personality's some what unique *awkward and strange, unique's just another word for it XD*. Never fit in with the popular nor did I want to, tried to join an anime club *my lord some of the things they do*, kinda just wandered. So what I do is try to find people with common interests and if I cant find that then I just hang around fun people. People willing to take risks and try new things. I have absolutely nothing in common with my BFF but I love her to pieces. It just works out I guess. I'll never change myself to fit in with others and I don't encourage others to do that either. Ive been left out before, its not a good feeling recently actually well about 5 months ago. But if you feel that way you should speak up or they'll never know. That and I pretended to leave the bar drunk so they'd look for me, yeah I know a jerk move but at least they gave a crap to look for me even though they forgot I was there.

Yea man I feel you but it ain't worth it I use to have ALOT of so called friends because I was a pretty good athlete in school and I did a lot of stupid stuff to stay in the spotlight just be yourself I hiddin my anime love for years and just my nerdy lifestyle just so I could keep this fake image going trust me you will sleep a lot better not trying to fit in because trying to is VERY stressful just pray about it everything will be ok

I know all too well how you feel, panda. When I was in elementary school I was the most popular kid. All the girls had a crush on me even though I thought they were gross. But then my parents got divorced and my family shattered from what I expected it to be. I moved away and had a lot of hate in my heart. I withdrew from everybody and didn't talk at school anymore. I didn't want to form relationships with anybody. Even when I tried to change back into the person I was before, I had been walking the path of the loner for too long. I was hopelessly chasing the dream of the past. Adored by all the girls, popular and loved. But then I realized, the path I walked alone my whole life had made me stronger than I ever would have been otherwise. If you want people to be a part of your life, ask them to join in things that you think are fun. If you don't fit in, carve out a place for yourself and like-minded people will be drawn to you once you radiate your energy. You have to truly realize yourself to find peace. You're still young, but you will find your peace.

My tale is less a fall from grace than Arc. It's more like I was the kid in the corner reading books whilst kids like Arc got the girls. Was approval seeking and was always trying to "get it". I didn't know what IT was but whatever it was... I did not have it. But once I learned to stop worrying what others thought of me, doing what I'm interested in, working on myself and carrying myself with genuine confidence I was able to get along with a lot more people. And not just in the "tolerate because I know how to deal with them" get along but rather finding ways to genuinely enjoy the company of different people in many different ways~ EDIT: And perhaps just as importantly, be okay with and by myself. Not having to depend on others to enjoy my time. Knowing when to let go of people harmful to my life. This is something I see missing in a good deal of people.

I was the shy quiet kid in the corner reading. I liked a girl in 3rd grade but she wouldn't go out with me because I wasn't popular and she was embarrassed to be seen with me. Writing her Shakespeare on rose stationary just after I learned to write cursive didn't help much. I was pretty shy till after high school. Even when a girl in 8th grade that knew I liked her and strongly hinted that I should ask her out, I still didn't. In 11th grade, we were at a ball game on a school trip and a girl in front of me that I had a crush on was obviously cold, I had a jacket and kept wanting to give to her, but never worked up the courage.

I feel this way too even on forums and online games. I remember back in h.s i had only maybe 4 friends total. I never got a long with anyone on the wrestling team back in h.s either and i was the only nerd too I ended up quitting the team sr year. Don't even get me started on the anime club there too *shivers* But yeah I always feel like i don't fit in to most of these crowds so I'm just usually am alone. I don't mind it too much honestly, means i don't have to deal with bullshit and drama, it would be nice to just have one friend where i currently live because all i do is work and go to school. Also i got bullied a lot too back in h.s and even back in middle school too so i just ended up eating lunch alone. Or i just went to the library and ate my lunch in there and read books.

I've never really fit in anywhere myself. Edgar Allen Poe has a poem that fits best with me. "From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were, I have not seen As others saw, I could not bring My passions from a common spring" Essentially I never saw eye to eye, or thought like most people I encountered. It's been that way since I was a small child. I've learned to accept that was a blessing, makes the friendships I develop more long lasting and special. I'm fairly open minded, and can get along with anyone. Though there is a feral, pre existing condition in a lot of people that sniff out people who are different; feeling the need to exclude, and ridicule them. That's how it is in this reality, and nature. It's up to us to become stronger, I consider myself a stronger individual for being different. Makes me unique and original; throughout pain, tears, misery and sorrow I built myself up. I hope you all can do the same, I'm very happy these days, even though I go through hard times. After all, I'm a Face of the Earth. Made out of the same elements, came out of the same womb called Wom(b)an. All I do is think different. ;) http://youtu.be/Hn_rJ95pE_s

I used to be in a large group, but then the drama happens and they ditched me, even my childhood friends. So I sticks with friends from anime club, and they're the greatest friends I could have in my life.