never fitting in...

I can't say I know how you feel, because I'm not you and we all think differently, but, I can empathize with you. Please don't mistake my empathy as feeling sorry. One thing, if I can ask.... how do you feel about you? Are you happy with yourself? I ask this because when you're happy with you and have accepted you for you, you think less of what others think of you and more of what will make you happy. People always strive to be accepted by others, it's only natural because it's part of our genetic makeup. Personally from my experience, I learned that the older I have become, the happier I am. I've learned to love myself more and not let the small things make big things out of themselves. I still have times where I recluse and binge on anime & manga, but who doesn't? I was and still am the black sheep of my family I have a few close good friends, which I personally believe is better than a lot of shallow ones. If you ever want/need someone to talk/vent/yell at/cry/etc. you're more than welcome to message me. I've been told I'm a pretty good listener and can give good input if you want.

I'm not sure if I've ever loved myself. I've never hated myself though. We'll a few times. Wish I could love myself but maybe if I had a girlfriend I would.

i think everyone has felt like that, sirubaa. I mean, i never felt highly of myself to where I thought i was better than others. if anything, i put myself down so people felt better. I guess my family did it to me for sooooo long that I just started to believe it, cause when guys would tell me that i'm cute i'd be like oh no i'm not. people always say that if you don't love yourself, nobody else will. i think that can be trust but even if you don't love yourself, if someone else does, maybe you will too.... hmmmmm

maybe thats because most peop,e love themselves and if there was two people that didnt love themselves they would go on a date

I've personally never felt like i fitted in to most of my social groups. -w- i just dont fit in anywhere, if im being blunt. I either and not ever heard when i actually talk to the point where i can be at a party i was invited tp and been completely forgotten (happened 3 times) or where where i just kinda sitting there reading/ listening to peoples conversations and cant ever comment on it because even when we do have common interests, They never really talk about the subject matter and all i have left is saying "i agree" or small talk, and lord i hate having to pull out small talk. Its really bad at conventions where even though i have more in common with the people there, I feel like a fish out of water. -w-; honestly it got to the point i just stopped caring for it and started to seclude myself from social things.. But oddly enough, when i would, then i would find a person who also feels out of place and get along with them , despite not having things in common...