never fitting in...

nah there are times when im left out XD it doesnt happen as often but on here there are even times when im ignored. i either try to force myself into the convo then it can get awkward so i just leave

@mochi it doesnt sound stupid at all :) i sort of get how you feel especially when you lose all your friends its happened to me as well and even now im in college and i cant quite make friends so im pretty much by myself and i do feel left out. honestly i would be friends with you irl along with everyone on this site if only we all lived in the same place

Dude... It's like you're having an existential crisis, but also you sound a bit needy by what you've said here(No worries, we all need/crave attention from time to time, even if just a little for some.). You'll be fine if what I see on here is any indication of who and how you are. Being lonely is normal at times and I dare say that there's not a human alive who hasn't been in your position at some point. You're young and in college, you'll make some real friends rather than just superficial ones soon enough. Real friendship takes time to find and sometimes even more time to cultivate. Acquaintances aren't necessarily a bad thing either. Just don't be desperate, that could/can lead you down some very dismal paths (People take advantage of desperate people for their own benefit, not everyone, but enough to let you know that you can't trust that most have your best interest in mind.). I tend to hold friendship on a high pedestal and as such, not everyone deserves for me to call them a friend(Of course, I can't be everyone's friend either.).

Well, I was always "that one guy" that nobody ever talks to. Everywhere I went, I felt like I was at a party I'm not invited to. Was either completely ignored, or given a short "lol ok" and then pushed away. I was on my own pretty much my entire life, and never really had any legit friends. I did use to try my best and fit in all the time, but eventually I just snapped and didn't care anymore. I decided that my own happiness will never depend on somebody else, and that all the presence I'll really ever need in my life, is none other than my own.

Don't get me wrong though. If I do happen to make friends and all that stuff in the future, then that's a good thing. I just don't feel like making an idiot out of myself anymore, by trying to fit somewhere where I'm obviously not welcome and where I do not belong.

I feel that way 24/7. I pretty much learned to accept the fact that parties,bars,clubs just isn't for me and even in stuff I enjoy I don't fit in, like anime, I only watch dubs and the majority watches subs, video games is another example, I like Japanese/colorful quirky games such as Mario,Zelda,Pokemon,Akiba's Trip,YS,Corpse Party,The Tales of games,Hyper Dimension Neptunia,Banjo Kazooie,Banjo Tooie,Shantae,Shovel Knight etc. not Western/European games such GTA,Grand Turismo,Halo,Assassin's Creed,The Witcher,Bloodborne,Call of Duty etc. and yet each time video games are being spoke of, all everyone talks about are the western/european ones stuff I just don't care for. So yeah no matter what the circumstances, I just never find people whom I feel like I belong with. Which is fine, I learned to adapt to it, but still it gets lonely and depressing. That's just the way the cookie crumbles I guess.