yuuzora

Sorry I'm afk for a few days. I pinched a nerve so badly in my neck I've not been able to keep food or anything down due to the extreme vertigo. The whole room is spinning and I feel the centrifugal force of the earth is the only thing allowing me to concentrate enough to write this nearly blind. I can't walk in a straight line. It's like being the sick kinda of drunk and you feel kinda like you're gonna die. lol.

I'm out of meds, dealt with my mother's shit the last eight hours, so sorry if I haven't responded to anyone yet, I'm just kinda focused on staying sane. :')

After a few months of saving and working long hours, my online store is finally ready! It isn't much, but it's honest work. I take requests for merchandise that is not under copyright. So if you want me to draw your pets, please let me know what you want your pet drawn on! Here it is, and I hope you'll like it. Every purchase goes towards helping me get out of this abusive household. Thank you, everyone who supports me: https://corutanis-creations.printify.me/products

Thank you. I'll do my very best. Maybe someday I'll even be able to sell legal fanart if I can convince a company to let me. :D

I'll be opening my online pop-up store tomorrow. I take requests, so long as it's not copyrighted material. I'll wait until the store is actually making steady money before I approach big companies for printing rights. Anyone want to make a suggestions? Here's what I have so far: https://corutanis-creations.printify.me/products

Just putting this out here. It could take me up to a year to form a romantic bond with someone... is that too long to ask? Especially when it isn't guaranteed? Especially when the person I look for is so painfully specific? I know exactly who I want, in my inner world, I already have him. So anyone who dares try that route would have to be something extraordinary, or exactly who I'm looking for. Not what. Not if. But Who. I know who I want... but do they want me? Are they looking for me as much as I am them? How will I know it's who I am looking for? He'll like cleaning, be a decent fighter, casual musician, he's short, incredibly intelligent, has trauma that matches mine, isn't afraid of taking risks, a good leader when he has to be... so what am I bringing to this party? I like cleaning, am a decent fighter, a serious musician, I'm short, kinda smart sometimes, plenty of trauma but also the healing and coping tools to deal with it, I'm not afraid of risks at all, I am a leader and always will be, I also have the emotional intelligence he tends to lack. Is all that unrealistic? Especially when my life is NOT together in the slightest? I need friend support so badly and I'm afraid to be looked at like a romantic conquest. So being friends is a necessary first step to me. I could understand someone being afraid to be friendzoned. But if you are that person, there's no need to worry. Once I see you as a close friend, the romantic option would be open either way. Like I'd automatically give you a chance because you were my friend first. That's how it works for demis. Is that okay to ask? Am I asking too much? I'm just writing all this out because if I don't it'll eat me alive. This is sort of a safe space for me, so I'm probably going to post this to the void. Anyone who wants to comment can, and I'll to my best to understand your meaning even if it is tough advice. That's another thing I bring is that I do my best to be reasonable and rational, with schizophrenia reality is already hard enough to tell apart, so that can be hard. Which is why a rational, thinker-type person will work well with me. I'll appreciate your opinions and consider them very carefully.