yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Do you feel that person is toxic for you or is literally unobtainable?
Random thoughts...
RT @rtae86
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RT @rtae86
Love - a feeling that takes over you and sometimes makes you like someone you know you shouldn't.
You try to fight it. You try to forget it. But it's stronger than you.
That's what I'm thinking.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
I sent a strongly worded letter to someone who managed to get me verbally attacked by a literal nazi and a person who does not think women are people. I tried to be nice, but we'll see... honestly hate having to be so nice... it'd be nice to be seen as a human every once in a while. Come to think of it, I don't think it's ever happened outside of my siblings... I really wish I could become a hermit.
The baddest bitch @joemama711 Damn, sorry to hear that but dont give out your energy to people like that.
Curly Ice @forgetmenot
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Curly Ice @forgetmenot
Random, you said before something about whether I'd call chips "Chips or Crisps". But I'm curious. Do you call popsicles "popsicles" or "Freezer Pops"?
yuuzora @yuuzora I use both. I'd say I've used popsicle more than freezer pop, though.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Which place do you want to read it? I have it on Insta, Tweeter, and Patreon(It's free to read) I tried uploading it here, but not all of the pages would load.
acebandage @acebandage
acebandage @acebandage
Pretty please a link to your manga? I don't see a link to it in your profile. ^^
The baddest bitch @joemama711
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The baddest bitch @joemama711
My discord is soully769
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Oh interesting.
The baddest bitch @joemama711
The baddest bitch @joemama711
Several defintions for the word apprently that is one of them.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
I thought Dink was a racial slur against Vietnamese?
PAP: Relationship Goals
The baddest bitch @joemama711
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PAP: Relationship Goals
The baddest bitch @joemama711
The dinklebergs are happy and living their best life. Didn't know Dink meant Duel income no kids until lately.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Do you agree with the results?
Why are you single?
I am @amarantha
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Why are you single?
I am @amarantha
Took tests online cause idk what really to type here...
I am @amarantha Yes. Im actually amazed by the results because they are accurate.
yuuzora @yuuzora Hn. Understandable. It's good to have an outside opinion shed light on us. If gives a lot of self-awareness. I think everyone on here is some level of wanting a relationship but not sure if they're ready for one or ready but also still healing. lolol. Too bad we don't have an onboard miai to help with the matching process.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
When you live with a narcissistic abuser, even when a beloved dog dies, you become the strong one. She'll wail and scream. Understandable. She'll weep and moan. Also understandable. But if you do, even as a child surviving a bombing, you are told to shut up and stop being so emotional. So you do... you shut up all your emotional range and get the shit done. Call the cremation services, prepare the body, clean the spot where dearest doggo died, tell all the relevant people, comfort them, etc. etc.
It's here the narcissist will soak up all the attention and still have the audacity to ask, "How do you do it?"
She means how do you not freak out and lose your head? How do you keep all your emotions in check even when your father, your friend, your aunt, your kitty die? Even as a 7-year-old girl? How can you not be emotional? The answer is really simple; long ago you realized that your feelings never matter. So you push them aside. Even if you're furious, distraught, or anxious, it doesn't matter. And it never will.
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Your feelings do matter though. I apologize Yuu-chan for stepping in and I would think you probably won't or don't believe your feelings matter no matter who could or would tell you. But...even if you didn't believe me now or ever, it doesn't stop the truth of the matter being that your feelings have and will always matter. I'm sorry you've had to grow up with someone who treated those precious feelings otherwise, but every feeling you have felt and will feel IS important. All the hurt, sadness, anger and rage from incidents past and present are valid feelings. I hope despite all the pain you've been through and are going through doesn't stop you from ever simply trying to express your feelings now and in the future, cause you are precious and stronger than you know. I'm just sorry you had to be put through such circumstances (by someone who's supposed to family or close to you) to show the kind of resilience you can have. ❤️
yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah, I understand that's the logical course. Maybe it's that I don't really know how to emote anymore? Funny that I think writing this out is a way of lashing out. Maybe even starved for validation? So I should thank you for hearing me out.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
This one is so used to either being non-existent or the target of blame, so attention is not something I tend to like having. Since it is abuse, and this one is aware it is, I think lashing out is a way to get my story out there. Maybe as a chance there'll be an opportunity to escape? Generally I would write this out and just not post it, but I decided to here. Honestly it's kinda like a safe space. lololol. So sad. XD-----------------------------------------------------------------
I do appreciate your kindness. I will try to get better about all this.
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Such things take one step at a time. I think writing is especially a great way to get your feelings out when you feel you can't say anything or are working on how to put things, I have done it before with my twin when I didn't know how to explain to here out loud what I felt-----------------------------------------------------------------I don't think it's sad that you have a safe space, even if said safe space is somewhere or something you normally wouldn't expect. And as I said before writing can be a very useful means of escape, and if it helps you get those feelings out without harming yourself or others, well, I think that's a win to me. And try not to worry too much about writing or posting your feelings here, after all, tons have done it as well including me and that's perfectly normal and fine ^^.-----------------------------------------------------------------Take your time to heal and get better, change won't happen overnight and with the amount of trauma and abuse you've suffered it honestly will probably take longer, and that IS perfectly fine. I know you know baby steps are important for things like this and I hope you can be kind to yourself as you figure things out ^-^
