yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
By 'nice guy/nice girl' I mean the people that are manipulative and see only romantic conquest rather than seeing a human being.
I do believe that survival outcomes would be significantly improved if we started teaching first aid and cpr to every person in school.
I think getting a little weak in the knees counts as kishimu.
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Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying
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Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying
1. I'll let you know if I ever go to a few
2. I don't think so? I don't really get into the fandom in the sense of knowing how other people act in said fandom lol. I fan all by myself
3. Hmm? I honestly am still trying to work on that for myself :3
4. Yes. God always provided someone to give to our family so we had enough toys to be distracted, however we did like to play outside a lot more
5. Pokemon for me
6. Like the negative, irritating kind? If so, then, no.
7. I don't have friends to personally call me (as I don't have a phone/phone number to give out), but I'd say I'd handle it well. I've done so before with family and I'd extend that same care to my friends too
8. I don't (terrible if I meet anyone that needs it)
9. I don't feel sick per se but I do get weak and my grip loosens in a funny way XD
10. Yes. But I like to think I still handle it pretty well
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Oh, then definitely never have been a nice girl. That'd be evil to do to someone else :(
yuuzora @yuuzora I can say from personal experience that they are evil. You are prey, you are a toy, a thing, not a person with feelings they care about at all. They just want to bottle up the little faerie until they're done with it, then they will throw it in the trash. I honestly can say I hate them and actively wish them death.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Yeah, that is a nasty thing to do to someone. Like, of you want a fling why not find other people that won't take a relationship seriously either?
yuuzora @yuuzora Oh, they don't want a relationship. They want to consume. They don't see you as human. You're just disposable. At least that's how they make you feel.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying I know. And not saying I like or agree with flings myself, but I guess my thought is: if you really don't want to be in a relationship or focus on commitment, just don't be in one XD. Or find someone else who is fine with being together once and then moving on after you get... whatever gratification you get from that tbh lol
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying I just think people should learn how to show decent respect and kindness. But it's not always common to find someone who isn't always a jerk these days :3
yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah. It is a common mindset that romantic relationship is a commodity like new iPhone. Rather than connection, it's the status. Perhaps it's been that way a while, but then marrying and dating for love is a relatively new concept. It takes humans a long to unlearn such bad habits.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Yeah, I get what you mean. My sisters and I have been talking about relationships lately and I feel like it's a mix of certain people making their relationships their idols vs others treating something that should be beautiful carelessly. It's sad
yuuzora @yuuzora Hnhn. It will take years of teaching ourselves to identify positive, healthy relationships to hope to undo the cycle. I think men appear to have the most work to do with it, but women tend to turn a blind eye to toxic traits in hopes to 'fix' someone. It would be nice to see people accept and love a person as they are, rather than expect them to change to accommodate their needs.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying That is true. Sometimes it seems people are hostile towards actual relationships too, and I talked about with my sisters on how back then-and it still can happen today-that a lot of married couples and like elders (whether in the family or not) kind of bullied and singled out single people for the longest time. And I'm sure some relationships some saw were either legit abusive or turning a bline eye to what your partner did (no matter how bad) just because you were married
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying So... technically I guess we have a situation now where single people can bully married, or people that want marriage/a relationship, just for being married or wanting to be married. I also think a lot of folks need to take a step back to realize what actual love and what being in a relationship is. Because I think these days on both sides it can and is misconstrued lol. Sorry for the long walk of text Yuu-chan
yuuzora @yuuzora I prefer longer, completed texts than spam texting, but I am not bothered by either. :) ----------------------------
Truth be told perhaps since marrying for love is still such a new concept that we don't really collectively have a good idea of what this means. Like the difference between lowering standards and compromise. I do notice the bullying. My sisters used to bully me for not wanting romantic relationships to the point I pretended to have a crush to get them off my back. I even tried the online app thing. I honestly found it a bit traumatic. So many 'nice guys and girls'. ---------
Maybe teaching what healthy love looks like should be a part of curriculum? There's a few examples in media, but usually they're nerfed in any 'remake' *cough* Adams Family *cough cough*
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying I can send whole complete texts for you specifically if you much prefer, don't worry about it okay? And it's sad actually love and affection is such a foreign concept for people, although I do believe people have and still do marry for love, there's still an issue with lots of married or at least coupled people being mean or even hostile to those that aren't in a relationship and also now single people being hostile to the people who are in a relationship with someone. I do think how to act in a relationship and whatnot should be a class too XD
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
OMG seriously. Especially in high humidity area. First time I ever got heat stroke. I'm glad my bois had my back or I'd probably still be wearing the stucco. :(
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Rain @rainx
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yuuzora @yuuzora
Same. One can only want to give the poor baby a new one. :,<
Chai time with Amir, Frank and Jeff.
Amir @amir_bahram
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Amir @amir_bahram
That video of racoon dissolving his cotton candy makes me sad everytime I see it
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
So, I have a serious abuser trait that is tied to OCD and PTSD. When I sense a certain strain of selfishness *and* lack of self-awareness in a person (most often as a defense response to certain topics) I pick them apart like shark eating whale carcass. I know what I'm doing is evil. I state that. But I cannot stop myself. I state that also. So if you ignore that and still show no self awareness... I actively wish you death and I'm low key trying to get you to kill yourself. It's... evil. I know. But I cannot help it despite knowing about its existence. Usually I'm extremely empathetic, I try to see why and how you feel and put your feelings before my own. I help you through darkest hours and recognize if you're going through something particular. Usually. So that this trait exists and knowing why, I feel like it's important to disclose this. Even if no one reads this, I at least have to get it out of my head before it eats me alive. It's the primary reason I cannot be a good romantic partner to anyone.
Ghost @kuharido You got to protect yourself
yuuzora @yuuzora
It still isn't right... abuse is never okay. But I can't stop myself just out of the obsessive compulsion.
---Optional to read below, getting thoughts out of my head is a poor coping mechanism, but it's working----------------------------------------------------
When I try explaining it repeatedly and the person continues to make everything about them and completely not understand what is being said. Basically being far too emotional... they admitted that I'm nothing more than a romantic quest achievement to this person. Not a human being. I want to believe better of people... so I allow myself to be lied to... but in the end my intuition is always right. Only thing I can hope is they stay alone forever and don't hurt anyone other than themself. Sorry... too much for one stranger. Bordering on literal psychosis doesn't help. Reality is painful.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Don't apologize for wanting to speak. Even if the things you want to say are a bit on the heavier side of things ❤️
yuuzora @yuuzora One of the people that brought this topic up reads this thread. Like above, I have begged them to chop the head off, but they continue it. It forced my alter to the surface and uninstalled the app I used to talk to this person. I just... it's caused so much mental pain. And mind you, I'm sure I tore them to pieces. I warned them again and again. I explained again and again. But they still don't even care. Mind you, I am continuing to admit that what I am doing is abusive and very mean and hurtful. But due to the ptsd and ocd, I literally cannot stop it. I have been trying and I have so little defense for it with the other mental strains I am under.
---Optional to read----
By the way person reading this.
1. I am not claiming you are a sex addict, I am claiming you are a covert narcissist. This is because you still only see the things that victimize yourself and cannot see anything outside of that. Chances are London Girl endured the same thing. I feel for her, honestly.
2. Despite being in a psychotic spiral, I still have more self-awareness than you and the original post is that evidence. Pathetic.
3. I know no matter what I say, you'll only see the parts that validate your victimhood. I told you that you're the one that has to stop it. My OCD won't allow me to. I have said this several times.
4. To you women aren't people. That's what set this off. Your blatant words were the catalyst.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying I hope I'm able to respond...even if it's not who you expect or want to respond? But, I am sorry this is a response caused my PTSD and OCD :(, my eldest brother and dad have PTSD and with that can/has come some emotional and such responses (whether negative or whatever else). I can't imagine what it's like to have PTSD or OCD but I do hope you can continue to live and love YOUR life to the fullest Yuu-chan, because you deserve happiness, love and peace ❤️
yuuzora @yuuzora The person I was addressing in the optional bit, likely spammed the Line chat that I uninstalled to try and end the cycle. I will not look at the messages. Otherwise it'll just start again.
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I hope you won't let this ruin your day. You're too kind a person to endure this trauma dumping. So I apologize for being so irratic.
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I appreciate your kindness. I still have a long way to go before I'll be stable. Admitting my faults, abuses, toxic traits and figuring out how and why I have them... even if it hurts. I *want* to be a good person. That means purging these traits from my heart. I want to learn to forgive... Sorry this is a lot... being in psychosis I'm not myself.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Please don't apologize to me! I don't mind you needed to rant or let things out, trust me, I'm used to it and I don't mind it at all. And...not saying this will mean anything to you, but I think you're on your way to being a good and better person. It's hard enough for people to admit their mistakes and faults, so that to me is a mature mindset and attitude you have. I know trying is tough but I hope you keep pushing towards better for yourself and those around you. Just ultimately be patient with your process Yuu-chan ^-^
yuuzora @yuuzora I usually don't involve others in my business. Since everyone is going through something. Adding more to their plate, can tip the scales. Make no mistake, I'll be here if you need help. Both qualified and certified to do so, despite the psychosis. It can often be beneficial to help others.
Due to the OCD response, that inhibition is lower, so writing it out gets it out of my head before it devours me. The most I could do is separate it with a line so a reader knows it's optional.
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying It's perfectly fine to not want to involve other's in your business, but just know I'm fine with listening even if I may not have much to say. And it's fine if writing helps, I write too when I have things I want to say that I don't have to strength to say out loud. Oh! And I'm fine with reading your longer texts too ^^
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Randomly don't know you, but I would much prefer you just say you don't want to. I will completely understand if you would rather fucking not with anything right now but if you come up with lies, I'm just going to troll you like this until you admit it. :)
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Red @redhawk
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Most people know Nostradamus for his future predictions. His actual profession was a plague doctor. He was rather successful since he promoted hygiene and proper disposal of bodies. He also had a medicine made from rose hips.
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yuuzora @yuuzora Oh. That is interesting.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Dear people looking to add me,
Please read my ABOUT first. Thank you.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
I was raised Irish Catholic, so I understand.
I don't trust people who say they don't like any form of cheese. Sus.
Yay! One human with a normal upbringing. I'm glad you are close with your siblings. :D
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vectorphresh @mrvee
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vectorphresh @mrvee
Here's my response to first set of questions:
1. My favorite color is red
2. Right now my playlist has electronic music from Clark, Gingy, Lorn, and Wreckage
3. I'm re-watching "The Devil is a Part Timer"
4. I speak mainly English, and understand some Spanish because of my cousins
5. I work as a software developer for a large corporate firm. It's a fun job, and I build software that helps people get around every day. The politics can be a drain, but the people I work with are chill.
6. I have two siblings--an older sister and younger brother--both of which I'm close to. I spend a lot more time with my bro tho, who also lives in California.
7. I get along pretty well with my dad and stepmom, but was not very close to biological mom when she was alive due to her struggle with mental health.
8. The Peanut butter banana protein smoothie from Jamba Juice is a favorite, and I like drinking coffee sometimes
9. Not really. I like going fast (Initial D!) but move over when driving in the fast lane.
10. I did not enjoy school, but I liked my high school math teacher because he was kind even when I was struggling (or slacking). He encouraged me to go to college and would chat about the latest math during breaks.
11. Last time I tested I was ENFP-A.
12. I was raised catholic, but not so much as an adult. I'm pretty sure there's a god who has an awesome sense of humor, and believe we are all connected. I believe you are what you think, and mostly live by that.
13. I'd be Akira Tendo from Zom 100. Awkward, but my heart in the right place.
14. Not sure. when it's just me I try to avoid conflict, but I go all in when people are in trouble or need support. I've fought for my friends and given CPR to relative strangers, and was pretty scared in both cases.
15. Favorite food has always been pizza, and feeds my cheese addiction. I've started to eat helathier tho while microdosing mozzerella
16. I think it would be fun to play games at Dave Busters, have some drinks, and take silly photos.
17. I don't think so. :P
18. My favorite exercise is cycling and I used to sign up for small races (like Onoda Sakamichi) but...
19. My job eats a lot of me time, and its constantly in hair-on-fire mode. I find time to relax but I wish I had more.
20. It feels like love is the universal language, and that you create the world togther.
vectorphresh @mrvee It was super chaotic living with my biological mom, but now that I’m older, I can see she did best she could. I didn’t get what she was going through until I was much older.
yuuzora @yuuzora Aye. Retrospect offers a lot to us when we pay attention. Still glad you made it through. Do you still keep contact with your mam now that you're older?
vectorphresh @mrvee She passed during the pandemic from dementia. Was tough for a while, and I regret not being with her more
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Hn. Plague Doctor is a good one. Especially with all the aromatics they kept in their masks.
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Ghost @kuharido
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1. What is your favorite monster?
Dracula, you can do a lot with him. He's uniquely deep. The novel did a good job highlighting the differences in modern thought vs old superstitions. Bram Stoker lived through the Potato famine in Ireland so I'm sure that had a profound effect on his novel. Seeing people delirious with hunger definitely gives you an idea of monstrosity both in the people suffering and those that were apathetic to it. The oppression at the time might have contributed to giving Dracula the dominating presence. The fear of vampires has a lot of symbolism. Many people suck life out of others. This happens often in human history. Especially with overtaking areas for resources, genocides, slave labor, and razing areas. It's vampiric in many ways since this pillaging can empower a group at the expense of another.
https://media.tenor.com/xmMa0nfKHO4AAAAC/bela-dracula.gif
2. How would you describe your sense of humor?
Sardonic, I mostly laugh at others misfortune. I also like skit comedy very much. Check it out with Dr Steve Brule and Moonbeam city capture my ideal humor very well.
https://media.tenor.com/VJunDd-OgqUAAAAC/steve-brules-tickles.gif
3. What is your best friend like?
I have a tier system with my friends so I don't really have "one" best friend. Just depends on the environment which I am. I usually like someone who doesn't judge me. Enjoys the random junk I say.
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4. What's the dumbest thing you've heard someone say?
Poor people who think Trump is on their side.
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5. What's the dumbest thing *you've* ever said?
One day I'll find some lady to love and marry.
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6. What anime do you wish never existed?
Rosario vampire, it was so far removed from the manga. It's really a shame cause the story was so good.
https://media.tenor.com/nqyA7NIwlLsAAAAC/rosario-vampire-anime.gif
7. What do you think of CGI versus practical effects?
It's okay in some projects like that gem anime "Land of the Lustrous" but most companies use it as a cheap alternative to hand drawn.
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8. What's your favorite aesthetic?(Like personal style choices)
Wish I could be a plague doctor. That was such a badass aesthetic.
https://media.tenor.com/buehRLio7DMAAAAC/plague-doctor.gif
9. Are you a procrastinator?
unfortunately yes, I have low self esteem.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khK_afMwAdA
10. What is your least favorite trope in anime?
the dumb main character.
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yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Practical effects are basically the things they used before CGI. Like putting a man in a suit instead of CGI Godzilla, using ketchup as fake blood, etc.
And yay, same style! Love it! Though I'm a sucker for either pastels or contrasting colors with black like bright obnoxious pink. :D
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Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying
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Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying
1. I don't think I have one
2. I honestly don't even know? I don't really have a dark, dark sense of humor...but I can tell you I love dad jokes lol
3. She is very blunt and honest, sometimes to the point of brutality. Sometimes people have described her and I as fire and ice, but we balance each other out very well. She does have a soft side but she tends to let me do the comforting (people have likened us to a husband and wife/dad and Mom XD)
4. I have heard a lot of crap come out of people's mouths. But the first thing I can think of is my baby brother blaming our Mom for her miscarriages (he was really young then but it was still stupid to hear lol)
5. Hmm? When I told my twin I didn't want to be her sister and when I was like 3-5 and called my Mom a cow (she was pregnant) :(
6. Boku No Pico and any extremely perverted anime with lolis, shotas and just every pedophiliac/creepy anime
7. Say what now? For CGI I think it is cool but my brain is smol and too dumb to understand the other one lol
8. Frills, poof, sparkles, cutesy stuff and looking like a neon marker
9. It depends
20. I don't even know? I forget tropes tbh
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Your fashion sense is beautiful ❤️. And I think putting someone in a suit is funny, especially depending on what it is or looks like. Both can be fun!
yuuzora @yuuzora Right. Putting someone in a suit can be silly, but for a kaiju movie for example, it's part of its charm that it doesn't take itself too seriously and just wants to tell a good story with good acting and a little humor. :)
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying I don't think I've seen Kaiju movies. What is that specifically?
yuuzora @yuuzora Kaiju means 'strange beast' in Japanese. It's basically the movie monsters like Godzilla, Rodan, Gidorah, Mothra, Biolante, King Kong, etc. :)
Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Ah, okay. Then I have at least seen Godzilla and Mothra
