vectorphresh

My ex gf introduced me to weed. Weed is tight. I smoked everyday for a year straight. I'm thankful for weed because it caused my narcissist collapse. Bruh should know what the weed he gave me did. Call that shit unstoppable death explosion rebirth Pack. When I was low self awareness weed was fun. Now that I'm high self awareness I micro dose weed because I respect the drug I only use it to loosen the ego for deep inner work. But, I'm to pussy I like when the ego breaks but don't want to force it that's why I just gently tap the ego and see the size of the leak and can I handle it. I want a flood but I don't want to do it. But, I did alot of ego destruction I don't need anymore I would experiment and test the waters to get work done but I have schizophrenia so I stopped smoking if I didn't have it I would still be smoking. I wanna let in some of the pain from the deepest corners of my mind. Just leaks though to bad I have stupid voices.