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WillWorkForIsekai

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Taken, Straight
17分 ago
On The Narrow Road,
willworkforisekai
Lol what is Las Palagas? I hope that's no my diagnosis I don't want to get in Leon way lol. I didn't even go to the hospital it was only a little blood. Still debating if I want to go. Idk. I feel fine.
gabriel_true
Did they diagnose you with Las Palagas! https://i.ytimg.com/vi/-ZJo0PIJjDk/hqdefault.jpg Jokes aside, how are you holding up?
gabriel_true
Gabriel @gabriel_true Might have been an ulcer.
willworkforisekai
Yeah I seen some of his videos here and there I never really go looking for his videos they just come up on my feed when I'm scrolling or when they get recommended to me I click on them sometimes. Shit is mad funny though I should subscribe I don't think I am yet. I wish SSJ9k would post more often I find that channel funny ass shit.
burninghalo
May 08, 26 at 6:00pm
Didn't know you were a DevilArtimis fan. Nice
burninghalo
May 08, 26 at 6:00pm
Didn't know you were a DevilArtimis fan. Nice
willworkforisekai
I drunk it once don't remember what it tastes like
gabriel_true
Vaguely. Never drank the stuff though.
willworkforisekai
Shame you couldn't really play with the cats alot.
wei_ying
@gabriel_true Day 132: Gabby, Gabby, Gabby!!! I was right yesterday about our mom knowing me better than I know myself. My surprise was better than good – and describing it as great doesn't even do it justice! Guess what my surprise was? It wasn't food, it wasn't a trip to buy something at the mall-but it was a Cat Cafe named: Feline Felon Cafe. I got to see kittens in person for the first time, but I didn't get to pet them really because they were recently introduced to the place so they were scared and hiding, but seeing them was great enough, and I got to pet at least one kitten named Bowser. My twin and I didn't spend much time in the kittens room since they were scared enough as is, so when the worker came to check in on us, I told her I'd rather go to the adults because they'd be used to people being around them and I didn't want to intimidate the kittens anymore. Our mom bought one dry treat for me to feed to the cats and three wet treats to dispense onto a green paddle so the cats can lick from it, because if I tried to feed them with just the packet alone, they'd apparently try to snatch it from me XD. There were about three to four black and white (oreo) colored cats; two of them really liked me and their names were: Jasper and Poe. Then there was two grey cats named Honey...and Munchbutter (my twin just now named him because we forgot his name lol), Honey was very greedy and hissed at the other cats that came too close to the treats, but she listened well when I kindly scolded her for being a meanie. Then there was a cat named Feta that was in cat-jail because he's a bully to the other cats and tries to act innocent when caught XD, but he still got fed treats through the cage because I felt bad that he wasn't participating in food stuff. Then, the cat I reaaaally bonded with was an older cat/resident couch potato: LuLu. She only wanted me when I had snacks, but then she slowly approached me and allowed me to pet her after sniffing my hand a couple times. She reminded me of my twin with the RBF look she had, and how low-key cuddly she could be with me...so yeah, she was the best cat, and she even started purring when I pet her! It felt great to be accepted and surrounded by so many sheltered cats as a cat person, because it solidifies the fact you truly ARE a cat lover because the cats like you back. I had a really great day with my twin, mom and baby brother, and afterwards we ate Zaxby's for lunch, very delicious! - I Was So Happy I Cried: Cat Mommy
wei_ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying I only got to play with the kittens less, the big cats were very welcoming and sweet. I didn't mind not being able to see the kittens much though, I understand that they're just scared is all.
willworkforisekai
Looking Good Man
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Finally got done to 22% body fat yay I guess
willworkforisekai
Fuck yeah knights of justice I don't know what that is but it sounds cool. Sick cosplay. I'm tispy. Why are they face blurry lol. He looks like he got a fucking high top lol.
redhawk
Feb 03, 26 at 8:48am
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Arthur and the Knights of Justice layered drip https://youtu.be/gjbWDjzTM0A?si=_HwgwX82bA8GZI_a
willworkforisekai
Oh that's something that never happened to me. So, I can't say anything helpful. I'll just pray all things fall into place for you and you understand your strength and beauty.
willworkforisekai
To surrender all you have to do is accept your identity in Christ. You don't have to earn it or be worthy. God doesn't want you to beat yourself up. But, I understand sometimes I beat myself up to stay on top of my game. It use to be deeply personal but now I just do it to keep my edge while moving forward because has done good works in me that I acknowledge which balances my self worth. It was tricky for me as well to understand how to surrender. What helped me is realizing his love is free. The gift of salvation is free. Once I knew that I accepted it. You can accept it to. You will never be good enough for God you are loved how you are imperfect. Nothing you do can separate you from Gods love we don't accept it because we feel dirty. All he asks is to accept the identity in him and know that you are being made a new ceation and that the old things are passing away. He didn't say get clean before surrendering he said surrender to me and I will clean you up. With your identity in Christ is something that follows you it never leaves you the blood of Jesus is thoroughly and repeatedly washing and cleaning you as many times as it has to. As long as you persevere following him and keep trying to be more like him. You can safely abide in his love. God loves you he doesn't want the clean you he wants the dirty you that needs cleaning. Don't feel bad if you can't surrender now. Just stay on the road they call it the long narrow road for a reason. God is not ashamed of your speed of surrender also he won't force himself on you and make you surrender. He is gentle and patient. God is not ashamed of who you are. God sees all the good in you. He knows your limitations and won't hold them against you. God is proud of you for seeking a closer relationship with him. So don't personally attack yourself but if you do atleast acknowledge the good works God has done in you. I see a person God has worked on and alot of good things show about you. You might can't see them. But, one day you will. God sees them and he doesn't want you to judge yourself so harshly. He wants you to acknowledge what he's done in you and be excited for more. He wants you to see the good in you as well so you can be thankful for yourself and the walk he has you on. Hope this helps.
wei_ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Kai. I think the hardest part for me is that I am very self-aware and know/agree with all of what you said...it isn't that I doubt God Himself (I know that He's good and perfect in all things), but the idea that He actually uses/speaks to and through me is what my mind and spirit are constantly warring about. It's like the Bible verse that says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." My own self-hate and doubt sometimes get in my own way...even when I know God can and does use me...and it also doesn't help what happened last year, something was said that caused my own self-worth (or lack thereof) to crumble even more, so I more so doubt myself too much to the point that I feel I am not allowing God to speak to me because I doubt if I actually heard Him. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— I know that, at the end of the day, it's just my flesh and the enemy, but even though I know that, it's hard to fight constantly.
wei_ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you very much, Kai. I appreciate you.
willworkforisekai
To surrender all you have to do is accept your identity in Christ. You don't have to earn it or be worthy. God doesn't want you to beat yourself up. But, I understand sometimes I beat myself up to stay on top of my game. It use to be deeply personal but now I just do it to keep my edge while moving forward because has done good works in me that I acknowledge which balances my self worth. It was tricky for me as well to understand how to surrender. What helped me is realizing his love is free. The gift of salvation is free. Once I knew that I accepted it. You can accept it to. You will never be good enough for God you are loved how you are imperfect. Nothing you do can separate you from Gods love we don't accept it because we feel dirty. All he asks is to accept the identity in him and know that you are being made a new ceation and that the old things are passing away. He didn't say get clean before surrendering he said surrender to me and I will clean you up. With your identity in Christ is something that follows you it never leaves you the blood of Jesus is thoroughly and repeatedly washing and cleaning you as many times as it has to. As long as you persevere following him and keep trying to be more like him. You can safely abide in his love. God loves you he doesn't want the clean you he wants the dirty you that needs cleaning. Don't feel bad if you can't surrender now. Just stay on the road they call it the long narrow road for a reason. God is not ashamed of your speed of surrender also he won't force himself on you and make you surrender. He is gentle and patient. God is not ashamed of who you are. God sees all the good in you. He knows your limitations and won't hold them against you. God is proud of you for seeking a closer relationship with him. So don't personally attack yourself but if you do atleast acknowledge the good works God has done in you. I see a person God has worked on and alot of good things show about you. You might can't see them. But, one day you will. God sees them and he doesn't want you to judge yourself so harshly. He wants you to acknowledge what he's done in you and be excited for more. He wants you to see the good in you as well so you can be thankful for yourself and the walk he has you on. Hope this helps.
wei_ying
@gabriel_true Day 101: I'm tearing up in a closet rn, Gabby. I bet at this point you are wondering what the crap is up with me and this closet all the time lol, but I sit in here because it's getting cold in our room and the closet is warmer than out there. Anyways, I usually hate to talk about problems I'm having cause I feel really burdensome to others when I do it...but, as you aren't actively online, doing so is a bit easier. Me and my baby brothers Birthday is coming up soon, idk if you remember that it's March 1st, but there's the date for you–but, idk if I'm happy about it? It's not that I don't want to celebrate it...I really, reeeeally do, but there's a thing that God has instructed my sisters and I not to do right now that I can't explain in detail yet (if at all) that is not allowing me to celebrate how we traditionally do...and it's really hard for me. There's a plethora of other things that are making me feel really sad right now that isn't just that, and it's just irritating to me. I end up getting stressed out by myself because I know my self-doubt/hate is really a cycle and it's something I am trying to fight against, but I also feel like I'm not trying hard enough. I know that I need to surrender it to God, but I feel like I don't actually know how to surrender it wholly unto Him and it irritates me–I irritate me. God has promised me (individually), my sisters and my family so many great things, and yet I feel like I'm not truly worthy of such things. This process God is having my older sisters and I going through is extremely difficult at times cause I feel like it'd be easier of a journey without me, but, I know I shouldn't be thinking that way BECAUSE I know what He's said about us three being together for such a time as this. I've also been thinking about cutting my hair cause I feel like it's beauty is wasted on me. I don't take care of it properly, and it hurts me because I truly want to, but I never do it like I say, and so I start to tell myself God wasted His time on creating such long, curly hair for someone like me...which is really rude to Him because-to reiterate: I KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE. I really am tired of thinking this way...because in all honesty, I can't bring this mindset with me where God wants to take me, but I feel like I don't know how to properly give it away to Him. - I Love You, Gabby, and I'm Sorry For The Sad Post: Wei-Wei
wei_ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Kai. I think the hardest part for me is that I am very self-aware and know/agree with all of what you said...it isn't that I doubt God Himself (I know that He's good and perfect in all things), but the idea that He actually uses/speaks to and through me is what my mind and spirit are constantly warring about. It's like the Bible verse that says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." My own self-hate and doubt sometimes get in my own way...even when I know God can and does use me...and it also doesn't help what happened last year, something was said that caused my own self-worth (or lack thereof) to crumble even more, so I more so doubt myself too much to the point that I feel I am not allowing God to speak to me because I doubt if I actually heard Him. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— I know that, at the end of the day, it's just my flesh and the enemy, but even though I know that, it's hard to fight constantly.
willworkforisekai
Don't beat your self up from what I seen your a nice person. I hope you know and believe that. If you feel like you want God to work on you more just know that he is. Sometimes we go through storms and God is silent. But, from my experience the storm brings about innerwork. I know we get frustrated with ourselves and become impatient but God hands are always on us at all times all he asks is for some patience and perseverance so he can finish the work he started in us. I can tell you God will finish that work he started in you. And, one day you will be happy with yourself and feel all the suffering was worth it. But, don't beat yourself up a mirror that shows only flaws is a lie. Your a good person and I can tell you have a big heart. I pray God helps you with whatever you need help with. Feel better.
wei_ying
(7:04 PM Sat.) I'm crying over a heart that was given to me today. I haven't been doing my best internally lately...I keep doubting myself about certain things happening in my life recently and, in all honesty, just being a huge jerk to me. It's something I have been really fighting against and yesterday I just went to sleep early (for me anyway) and silently cried myself to sleep (I didn't want my sisters to hear me). Before I drifted off, I remember asking God to truly just help me with myself, because I know I am my own biggest enemy most days tbh...and I even told Him that sometimes I feel like I don't hear Him anymore or He's not listening to me (which I know isn't true, but I felt honesty with God is better since He knows it all). Today, after our mom came home from grocery shopping with our baby brother, she rushed downstairs and burst into the closet I was sitting in (cause it's cold over here recently), excitement on her face as she cups something in her hands. She tells me that she almost forgot to give this to me, but she found it after exiting the store she went to (which is truly surprising as our mom hates picking up random items from the ground outside) and really felt like I needed this item. My mom un-cups her hands and within them is a bedazzled heart (I really love hearts/heart-shaped things). It's kind of dented in one corner and is missing exactly three sparkles, to which mom apologized for giving me someone else's junk, but...she truly doesn't know how much I love it and needed it. God immediately spoke to me after my mom shut the door...He said that He always hears me and loves me. That just in the way that my mom looked at that dirty, slightly worn and busted heart on the ground but still saw the value in it, that He still sees value in me no matter how battered and weary I may feel at the moment. So, yeah, I am forever treasuring this little heart I've been gifted forever. ❤️
wei_ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Now I'm crying again (good tears, don't worry). Thank you, Kai, for the kind words, I needed to see that. ❤️
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