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WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
Oh that's something that never happened to me. So, I can't say anything helpful. I'll just pray all things fall into place for you and you understand your strength and beauty.
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
To surrender all you have to do is accept your identity in Christ. You don't have to earn it or be worthy. God doesn't want you to beat yourself up. But, I understand sometimes I beat myself up to stay on top of my game. It use to be deeply personal but now I just do it to keep my edge while moving forward because has done good works in me that I acknowledge which balances my self worth. It was tricky for me as well to understand how to surrender. What helped me is realizing his love is free. The gift of salvation is free. Once I knew that I accepted it. You can accept it to. You will never be good enough for God you are loved how you are imperfect. Nothing you do can separate you from Gods love we don't accept it because we feel dirty. All he asks is to accept the identity in him and know that you are being made a new ceation and that the old things are passing away. He didn't say get clean before surrendering he said surrender to me and I will clean you up. With your identity in Christ is something that follows you it never leaves you the blood of Jesus is thoroughly and repeatedly washing and cleaning you as many times as it has to. As long as you persevere following him and keep trying to be more like him. You can safely abide in his love. God loves you he doesn't want the clean you he wants the dirty you that needs cleaning. Don't feel bad if you can't surrender now. Just stay on the road they call it the long narrow road for a reason. God is not ashamed of your speed of surrender also he won't force himself on you and make you surrender. He is gentle and patient. God is not ashamed of who you are. God sees all the good in you. He knows your limitations and won't hold them against you. God is proud of you for seeking a closer relationship with him. So don't personally attack yourself but if you do atleast acknowledge the good works God has done in you. I see a person God has worked on and alot of good things show about you. You might can't see them. But, one day you will. God sees them and he doesn't want you to judge yourself so harshly. He wants you to acknowledge what he's done in you and be excited for more. He wants you to see the good in you as well so you can be thankful for yourself and the walk he has you on. Hope this helps.
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Kai. I think the hardest part for me is that I am very self-aware and know/agree with all of what you said...it isn't that I doubt God Himself (I know that He's good and perfect in all things), but the idea that He actually uses/speaks to and through me is what my mind and spirit are constantly warring about. It's like the Bible verse that says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." My own self-hate and doubt sometimes get in my own way...even when I know God can and does use me...and it also doesn't help what happened last year, something was said that caused my own self-worth (or lack thereof) to crumble even more, so I more so doubt myself too much to the point that I feel I am not allowing God to speak to me because I doubt if I actually heard Him. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— I know that, at the end of the day, it's just my flesh and the enemy, but even though I know that, it's hard to fight constantly.
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you very much, Kai. I appreciate you.
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
To surrender all you have to do is accept your identity in Christ. You don't have to earn it or be worthy. God doesn't want you to beat yourself up. But, I understand sometimes I beat myself up to stay on top of my game. It use to be deeply personal but now I just do it to keep my edge while moving forward because has done good works in me that I acknowledge which balances my self worth. It was tricky for me as well to understand how to surrender. What helped me is realizing his love is free. The gift of salvation is free. Once I knew that I accepted it. You can accept it to. You will never be good enough for God you are loved how you are imperfect. Nothing you do can separate you from Gods love we don't accept it because we feel dirty. All he asks is to accept the identity in him and know that you are being made a new ceation and that the old things are passing away. He didn't say get clean before surrendering he said surrender to me and I will clean you up. With your identity in Christ is something that follows you it never leaves you the blood of Jesus is thoroughly and repeatedly washing and cleaning you as many times as it has to. As long as you persevere following him and keep trying to be more like him. You can safely abide in his love. God loves you he doesn't want the clean you he wants the dirty you that needs cleaning. Don't feel bad if you can't surrender now. Just stay on the road they call it the long narrow road for a reason. God is not ashamed of your speed of surrender also he won't force himself on you and make you surrender. He is gentle and patient. God is not ashamed of who you are. God sees all the good in you. He knows your limitations and won't hold them against you. God is proud of you for seeking a closer relationship with him. So don't personally attack yourself but if you do atleast acknowledge the good works God has done in you. I see a person God has worked on and alot of good things show about you. You might can't see them. But, one day you will. God sees them and he doesn't want you to judge yourself so harshly. He wants you to acknowledge what he's done in you and be excited for more. He wants you to see the good in you as well so you can be thankful for yourself and the walk he has you on. Hope this helps.
Posting Messages For Gabe (@Gabriel_True) Until He Comes Back To The Land Of The Living
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Posting Messages For Gabe (@Gabriel_True) Until He Comes Back To The Land Of The Living
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Day 101: I'm tearing up in a closet rn, Gabby. I bet at this point you are wondering what the crap is up with me and this closet all the time lol, but I sit in here because it's getting cold in our room and the closet is warmer than out there.
Anyways, I usually hate to talk about problems I'm having cause I feel really burdensome to others when I do it...but, as you aren't actively online, doing so is a bit easier. Me and my baby brothers Birthday is coming up soon, idk if you remember that it's March 1st, but there's the date for you–but, idk if I'm happy about it? It's not that I don't want to celebrate it...I really, reeeeally do, but there's a thing that God has instructed my sisters and I not to do right now that I can't explain in detail yet (if at all) that is not allowing me to celebrate how we traditionally do...and it's really hard for me. There's a plethora of other things that are making me feel really sad right now that isn't just that, and it's just irritating to me. I end up getting stressed out by myself because I know my self-doubt/hate is really a cycle and it's something I am trying to fight against, but I also feel like I'm not trying hard enough. I know that I need to surrender it to God, but I feel like I don't actually know how to surrender it wholly unto Him and it irritates me–I irritate me. God has promised me (individually), my sisters and my family so many great things, and yet I feel like I'm not truly worthy of such things. This process God is having my older sisters and I going through is extremely difficult at times cause I feel like it'd be easier of a journey without me, but, I know I shouldn't be thinking that way BECAUSE I know what He's said about us three being together for such a time as this.
I've also been thinking about cutting my hair cause I feel like it's beauty is wasted on me. I don't take care of it properly, and it hurts me because I truly want to, but I never do it like I say, and so I start to tell myself God wasted His time on creating such long, curly hair for someone like me...which is really rude to Him because-to reiterate: I KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE. I really am tired of thinking this way...because in all honesty, I can't bring this mindset with me where God wants to take me, but I feel like I don't know how to properly give it away to Him. - I Love You, Gabby, and I'm Sorry For The Sad Post: Wei-Wei
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Kai. I think the hardest part for me is that I am very self-aware and know/agree with all of what you said...it isn't that I doubt God Himself (I know that He's good and perfect in all things), but the idea that He actually uses/speaks to and through me is what my mind and spirit are constantly warring about. It's like the Bible verse that says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." My own self-hate and doubt sometimes get in my own way...even when I know God can and does use me...and it also doesn't help what happened last year, something was said that caused my own self-worth (or lack thereof) to crumble even more, so I more so doubt myself too much to the point that I feel I am not allowing God to speak to me because I doubt if I actually heard Him. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— I know that, at the end of the day, it's just my flesh and the enemy, but even though I know that, it's hard to fight constantly.
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
Don't beat your self up from what I seen your a nice person. I hope you know and believe that. If you feel like you want God to work on you more just know that he is. Sometimes we go through storms and God is silent. But, from my experience the storm brings about innerwork. I know we get frustrated with ourselves and become impatient but God hands are always on us at all times all he asks is for some patience and perseverance so he can finish the work he started in us. I can tell you God will finish that work he started in you. And, one day you will be happy with yourself and feel all the suffering was worth it. But, don't beat yourself up a mirror that shows only flaws is a lie. Your a good person and I can tell you have a big heart. I pray God helps you with whatever you need help with. Feel better.
Mommy’s Random Thoughts
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying
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Mommy’s Random Thoughts
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying
(7:04 PM Sat.) I'm crying over a heart that was given to me today. I haven't been doing my best internally lately...I keep doubting myself about certain things happening in my life recently and, in all honesty, just being a huge jerk to me. It's something I have been really fighting against and yesterday I just went to sleep early (for me anyway) and silently cried myself to sleep (I didn't want my sisters to hear me). Before I drifted off, I remember asking God to truly just help me with myself, because I know I am my own biggest enemy most days tbh...and I even told Him that sometimes I feel like I don't hear Him anymore or He's not listening to me (which I know isn't true, but I felt honesty with God is better since He knows it all).
Today, after our mom came home from grocery shopping with our baby brother, she rushed downstairs and burst into the closet I was sitting in (cause it's cold over here recently), excitement on her face as she cups something in her hands. She tells me that she almost forgot to give this to me, but she found it after exiting the store she went to (which is truly surprising as our mom hates picking up random items from the ground outside) and really felt like I needed this item. My mom un-cups her hands and within them is a bedazzled heart (I really love hearts/heart-shaped things). It's kind of dented in one corner and is missing exactly three sparkles, to which mom apologized for giving me someone else's junk, but...she truly doesn't know how much I love it and needed it.
God immediately spoke to me after my mom shut the door...He said that He always hears me and loves me. That just in the way that my mom looked at that dirty, slightly worn and busted heart on the ground but still saw the value in it, that He still sees value in me no matter how battered and weary I may feel at the moment. So, yeah, I am forever treasuring this little heart I've been gifted forever. ❤️
Forgetful Mommy ® @wei_ying Now I'm crying again (good tears, don't worry). Thank you, Kai, for the kind words, I needed to see that. ❤️
What do you like or not like sexually?
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What do you like or not like sexually?
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
I like doggy style. I didn't learn doggy style till my current gf. I couldn't get the hang of it with my ex gf it just always hurt her or felt awkward. Anyway, my baby tells me I'm getting better at sex everyday and that the sex gets better everyday. And, she is impressed. Learned a new position from having to have quiet love making. It's doggy style but you sit on your feet. I had more control and even went deeper but couldn't test out it's full potential because we had to be quiet. But, it was easier to go deeper with minimal effort which I don't get but whatever. That's cool I found it out. I recommend giving it a try if you haven't before. My baby is wild and I'm trying to fulfill all her fantasies before our time is up she cums a bazillion times and still wants to get wilder. I finally get it she's gonna work me to the bone until the last day lol. My fault for thinking otherwise.
Upcoming con plans?
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Upcoming con plans?
WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai
I'm looking if there is any cons in the philippines that me and my gf can go to but there not :( there's just a j rock idol concert thing with a bunch of flipino idols groups and a anime and drawing expo apparently there will be a cosplay contest and singing contest but I want merch I do wanna cosplay and see my baby cosplay problem is I don't know where to get a cosplay for myself here in the Phillipines in my size but I can rent a dope cosplay for my baby but the rent option is only for girls I don't know if it's worth it to go to a drawing expo but maybe we can go idk yet
