WillWorkForIsekai

Being a narcissist and schizophrenic is tricky and hard. Cause on one end your a narcissist who did terrible things. And, on the other end your schizophrenic so the voices abuse feels normal. You learn to accept the abuse as a way of life. But, I realized the voices only want the annihilation of my self worth. They want me blind to the fact that even with narcissistic traits and patterns that does not mean I STOP BEING HUMAN or become UNWORTHY OF COMPASSION. My gf has alot of compassion for me. My baby momma has alot of compassion for me. My mom has alot of compassion for me. So why do I think God wouldn't have compassion on me when he's better than all of us. I know how to maintain self worth / self esteem cause I fought for 7 years and accomplished alot. But, the voices have a trick if they tell you enough times how worthless you is you begin to think you belong there under there torment. I don't belong in a place of no compassion. I don't belong in a place that eats up my compassion for myself. And, staying there only makes me blind to those who would have compassion on me. They just want me use to staying in that place of no compassion they create so I think it's normal. It's not normal people can have compassion on themselves. People have showed me compassion. God is more compassionate than I realize. I'm not some non human blight you can just beat and I'm supposed to shrivel up and take it and agree this is what i deserve. I'm also human and allowed to have compassion on myself. I know they just want to annihilate my self worth. God often gives us better than we deserve. But, they would try to trick me that there is no compassion for me. They would try to trick me out of compassion for myself. Anyway, that's all I have to say on the subject. Glory to Jesus for helping me understand this