Rose Mommy ®

So... I've pocketed myself quite the life changing experience in just these few days. Twas like my true noble soul had awakened. If you actually read this stuff, I don't expect you all to believe it. If you do... Just hear me out.... FOR I AM BRIMMING WITH MOTIVATION! TIME TO SUCKER PUNCH KARMA RIGHT IN ITS UGLY FACE! Ahh... Excuse me. Few nights ago, my anger slipped and had another anger outburst... It ended with me stabbing a sauce injector into my chest just to get my point through. It was a shock feeling at first. and I dare say that being stabbed is near painless. As I was able to walk and talk normally, so the ambulance picked me up, and i was cuffed so i couldn't hurt myself anymore. But after all that was said and done, injector removed and stuff. However it was by court order that I stay in a temporary placement hospital for 3 days. To watch over me as we work a plans with a therapist and new meds. I quickly became pop among the other patients. I was fun to be around, but also well mannered overall. See, this is wear the pure gold heart part comes in, and it could be some trap, who knows? But one of said patients, around my age. Had a lot in common. here's the thing, She had no home to go to after her release. When I heard about it, it was almost like an instinct! I quickly became a dear friend to her. To the point she almost cried That I had to leave. What do I do? I offered her sanctuary in my home. I barely knew her as opposed to how much I think I know her. But Still. I took the risk of getting into trouble. None can say what the outcome will be, yet I jumped straight into the fire without a thought.... Is it Nobility? or is it Foolishness? I shall see in the days to come. But this.... It's just the motivation I needed to start getting my life on track! Now that I have something real to work for.... I'm just so excited for it! a job for a purpose! That's right. I quit my job. Now, I've applied at a local Italian Ice parlor thing. It may sound simple, but its fun, and colorful, pay is decent enough too! Ahhhhhh THE FEELING OF GETTING TO PLAN THE GREAT BEGGINING FUTURE AHEAD!! .... Ahem.. Sorry about that. https://media.tenor.com/KBefhn5IAE4AAAAd/jonathan-joestar-jjba.gif Now... my motivation didn't come from that alone. it also came through you, My friends here. Nah, everyone on MO. You guys/girls /nonbinaries really mean a lot to me, you know that? But yeah... I truly feel like its time for my character arc, and its gonna be huge!!

Grab a cup of chai and gather around. So today I got confessed to. Like an hour ago. By a girl I also really like. We met in my college farewell party. I was called onto the stage but my hands were messy because I was cutting cake. She cleaned my hands with her scarf and we became friends. Things were going super smooth. She doesn't watch but she watches the stuff I show interest in. I was talking about Vinland Saga and she started watching it. Then I was talking about Jujutsu Kaisen and she started watching it. I had developed feelings for her but I knew it would never work out cuz she's Muslim and I don't believe I'm God. An hour ago she confessed. We were just talking and she asked if I have anyone I want to confess to and I said nope. I asked the same question and she said "you". I was speechless XD. As we were talking about what we wanted to do, I almost said fuck it and wanted to tell her I like her too. But I came back to my senses and realized things would get VERY UGLY if she finds out I don't believe in God. So I told her I can't date her because of this reason. She handled it well. At least I think she did. I don't know how she's feeling but I hope she's alright. I hope I can stay friends with her