Religious rants

@wei_ying yeah i understand we cannot be perfect, i feel like my fiancee even tells me i try too hard and i push myself and relate everything to the LORD. I just feel like this life is not mine, my life and purpose is solely for the LORD. I just wish i could live by the standard set out for me. Each time i turn away from sin with conviction and each time my mind wanders, my tongue slips, my rage gets kindled, living a life without the lord for so long has made me kind of stuck in my old ways. I feel like lust is definitely something i struggle with, i catch myself making too many crude jokes and passes even toward my fiancee and like every other sentence kind of turns out that way. I hope for the day i can rid myself of this curse. I feel like God does help whenever i pray to him, but its kind of down to consistency. I pray both you and i can overcome our issues. I thank you for having this talk with me and God bless you.

@siruboo @yaasshat trust me food is the last thing i need, if i eat anymore they will have to airlift me out of my home just to get some fresh air.

Panda, you're no where close to that big XD. I'm sure you're fine. https://media.tenor.com/jz9aJI4fys4AAAAC/laugh-giggle.gif At my heaviest I was like 330 but I still got around. Glad I lost some weight though. Wanna lose more, it's tough but I think I can do it. https://media.tenor.com/o_xVRHrtKeIAAAAC/ritsu-ritsu-tainaka.gif

Me being airlifted like https://media.tenor.com/cR2H9M5p0UQAAAAM/horse-revoked.gif

@hell_hound7 There's no need to thank me for things like this...I dislike when people thank me for things especially like this XD. But, I know we will overcome all things through Christ which strengthens us. Something I've been trying to do recently is even trying to find Bible verses having to do with my struggles and issues, maybe try writing down scriptures to memorize and quote when you feel anger arising or lust taking place in your flesh. This battle is going to be tough, we know we aren't guaranteed an easy life as believers, but it'll be worth it ^-^ https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8yhNRTL/

Even as a firm believer in God, it still amazes me whenever he reaches out to me. Its trippy in a sense. For the past couple nights i have been going through it, im not sure what lead me to searching up annointing. I just remember my mom telling me years ago about annointing your home using oil and such and i just searched it up to see if that was really a thing and she wasnt just bs'ing me. But ultimately my search for scriptures online lead me no where. Then today a youtuber i am subscribed to posts about annointing. Its just crazy how that works. Within the span of hours i get what i was looking for.

If you search things in Google, you'll get recommendations in YouTube sometimes. Companies sell/share info ALL THE TIME. When I looked up things for my kids, lo and behold, I'd get video recommendations related to those things. Signs!!!!! Of course, I'm sure I'll be told I'm wrong somehow. To each their own. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=c9lh7lqZojc