Religious rants

Chocopyro @chocopyro Well even if you think your petty and annoying to be around. I'm happy you came around and chose to engage with me you helped me alot. Thanks for sharing a bit about yourself. I commend your honesty. After our interactions. I have a different view of you. A better impression of you then I had before. Your alright. Atleast you have the awareness to know how you make people feel when you talk about that stuff. I have no clue. It took a miracle and a curse for me to have awareness I had to fight for every little piece. But, going off what you said I guess I could be annoying aswell and hard to be around. Clue still hard to get though. With that said you can cross off one person who think your annoying. I hope you find someone that can lift you up. I don't talk to my gf about the stuff I talk about here. Cause I don't want to burden her wait a minute I'm getting a clue... I want to protect my gf peace and not burden her and shield her from the world and my absurdity. Ok getting a clue ok I may be to much of a burden, annoying, interfere with others peace. Oh my bad. I'm sorry.

I'm stepping off the path of faith. I'm unserious. And, I'm tired of rocking the boat and I ain't even on the team. The voices leave me alone when I'm not telling the truth or trying to get closer to God. 7 years of going hard against narcissism and schizophrenia. I'm finally at the point where I chose peace. Fuck being a weapon for people who won't even appreciate or notice your sacrifice. Good get rewarded with evil. And, I'm not a strong enough weapon to withstand the storm of blows for 7 years of battling alone. Saying Imma die bout this shit and them they need someone to die bout them. Now I'm just minding my business. Peace is better. I adopted the mindset that none of this has any meaning it's to absurd and I found freedom in that. No I don't need correction I literally just don't care about God anymore. Imma just keep my head down cause good get rewarded with evil. And, God ain't giving out enough buffs for me. Imma just play my part the narcissist who knows nothing about God and his ways. And, go my own way. Wasn't cut out for it anyway. The most I'll do now is a simple prayer out of habit that's all. I'm not cut out for saving people. A narcissist did take a stand though I'd say 7 years is enough to be proud so don't try me like I didn't. I can say to God this world fate I tried and don't try me like I didn't. Now that the heat off me I can focus on my gf and kids nothing else really has meaning. Carrying all this heat just for the relationship to be well below average. Yeah I'm good on that. Now I lay low