Mommy’s Random Thoughts

(6:02 PM Tue.) Eldest sister is making these mini cats...she's making a candy corn themed mini-cat for Halloween, and I'm wondering if I should try taking this cute blue one or the candy corn one? I could slip both into my Comfy without her noticing and pack them away safely XD, it's like tradition seeing if I can escape with her creations (don't worry though! I do plan to pay her for all BORROWED UwU items when I get the money, even if she doesn't want me to). Also, I'm planning on slipping away this fall themed garland she made. My twin and I love pumpkins (me) and mushrooms (my twin)...so the way we look at it, our big sister shouldn't create things we both like! It's her fault when you think about it...really, it is! Poor sap doesn't know when I'm planning to strike, though she knows I'm eyeing them up in attempts to borrow them, when is the question though, when. XD (Edit: Took the garland successfully while she went upstairs! She made two apparently and while I could take one for both me and my twin...taking both rn would be detrimental to the plan, I'll slip the second away at a different time frame sksksk.)

Your sister and you are so spook-tacular with your CRAFTS I'd easily mistake y'all for witches! Also you're known for pumpkins and your sister is a mushroom fanatic? Who are you two? Blair and Sucy Manbavaran!

(1:47 PM Sat.) That story I'm writing about a character finding out a loved one has Dementia is now at 18,429 words and ongoing. One of these days I'll come back to report how I've actually finished and posted it out into the world XD, but for now, it's moving along slowly but surely. The character just went to a family Doctor and got the scans done, nothing showed on it, which I wrote simultaneously soothing their nerves as well as causing them to panic and overthink about what could be happening to their loved one. The doctor in the story is someone the character has known for awhile (since childhood), so I kind of wrote them having a breakdown in the doctor's arms and being able to get out some of that stress. I'm not too great at medical stuff, so I didn't go into the process of the CT or MRI in too much detail, but enough to where I'm satisfied with it at least. The reason why nothing showed up is because I'm going based off of my own experience with my grandmother, and when she got her scans, nothing showed up at the time. Which means it could have been in its early stages (the Dementia) at the time, or maybe nothing showed up for her just because? So, that's how I wrote it in the story, nothing pops up at first and it causes the character to freak out and also be soothed in a way. This story was inspired by my own saddened thoughts at times as well as my curiosity on wondering how my mom feels watching her own mother practically slowly decaying before her eyes. In the story I write a lot of good times to mix with the pain because that's life, especially my family's life XD, we've been through so much together and still laugh, this situation with our grandma is just one more hurdle to jump together as a family. I realize how I tend to write a lot of the comfort coming from the dementia ridden loved one themselves-because just like with my grandma-she is forgetting us, but we are NEVER truly forgotten, when she sees us hurt or sad she still recalls the feelings of love attached to us despite her confusion and reaches out to offer comfort. You may not remember an event, date, year or time, but you can always remember how you felt. ❤️

(2:48 AM Tue.) Me and some of my siblings have a dentist appointment today. We usually end up going together as a family anyway around this time of the year to get our teeth cleaned, it's like a fun family thing! Maybe that's why I think of the dentist so fondly? XD Anyway, I suddenly had a memory of when I was smaller and getting my teeth cleaned, the mouth doctor was checking on my teeth before cleaning and asked me to open my mouth, so I did. He then told me I didn't open wide enough so I opened it wider as he asked, and the man had the nerve to tell me I had a big mouth...so I immediately responded with how he has a big head. I look back on the situation and feel bad for being disrespectful, but what's even funnier is how he just responded with "fair" after I insulted him. I remember telling the dentist that we are here for him to make comments on my teeth, not my mouth size. So sorry mister dentist for the rudeness! XD

(7:08 PM Tue.) The dentist visit went well and was very nice. I kept trying not to stare at the main dentist who did the cleaning as she cleaned XD, I sometimes didn't know where to look. The two women (the nurse dentist and the actual doctor dentist as I call them) were really nice and talked, not too much and not too little...though I feel like they were using the: "I'm talking to a little girl rather than a woman voice" on me as people tend to do when I go out XD. And maybe I was imagining it because it happens so much? But I have experience with that voice and they were both using THE VOICE on me. It is funny to think about though...cause everyone here thinks I'm much older than I actually am, and people IRL tend to see me as way younger than I am most of the time. I can't win! But it's fun to keep 'em guessing! XD

(6:03 PM Fri.) Today is a beautiful day guys! I came downstairs at like 3 in the afternoon to say good morning (afternoon) to my mom and give her kisses (my dad didn't get any at the time cause he was out) and was told we were having pizza for dinner (it's my favorite food). Then my mom went to the store right quick and came back with these pumpkin chocolates for me! They are very light on the pumpkin spice flavor and mostly taste like milk chocolate, but I'm not complaining cause I love chocolate anyway. I got them all because my two older sisters ran a shopping errand for our mom, saw the chocolates, thought of me and then came home and told our mom about them. So our mom locked it away in her brain to pick up later. I love having siblings that associate certain stuff with you constantly! XD You may get snacks or little surprises out of it! (Edit: these poor little chocolates won't last long either. I'm a chocolate gremlin.)

(10:42 PM Thu.) My mom brought these home for me a few days ago. She's a mind-reader as usual XD. I told her I needed earphone's but not what kind, at the last second I thought to myself I need more Pusheen The Cat stuff and the earphone's she happened on getting are Pusheen The Cat. She also ordered this shirt for me because it has both pumpkin's and sunflowers on it, two things in nature I enjoy a lot! On another note, those pumpkin chocolates I received did not last long, maybe two days? Which for me that is forever since I'm a Choco-holic and usually eat up sweets in one day lol.

I have Pusheen stuff I collected. I even have a scarf. I bought it because Pusheen looks similar to the Maine Coon my parents own. She's very similar in personality as she eats twice her 30 ILB bodyweight in junk food my mother won't stop feeding the cat and she lays around the house all day.

(4:31 AM Sat.) I was looking through the bookmarks on one of my stories (it-the website I use-shows the people that have bookmarked my story and even shows a review they left for the specific story in their bookmark). And I don't know whether to feel proud this one user put it in their personal collection of stories they enjoyed, or to feel bad for possibly causing this person emotional whiplash and distress! XD For the slightest bit of context...this story was veeeery rough. It has "graphic" depictions of violence and torture (I don't think my writing is THAT good, but I like to be more cautious when I'm writing. And to be fair, it did deal with heavier themes), but, this user wrote: "F*ck. I won’t read this again. Donde un (enter antagonist name) que sufre por la pérdida de (enter name) y (enter name) llega a la Mansión, donde está (enter protagonist name) y TODA su familia, para hablarle/pelearle/gritarle/agredirle/torturarle. Parece casi imposible que cada cosa que pasa sea mil veces peor que la anterior, pero así pasa en esta historia. (Translation: Where a (enter antagonist name), suffering from the loss of (antagonist wife name) and (antagonist son name), arrives at the Manor, where (enter protagonist name) and his ENTIRE family are, to talk to him/fight him/scream at him/attack him/torture him. It seems almost impossible that each thing that happens is a thousand times worse than the last, but that's what happens in this story.) I think it's a W since they enjoyed it, but at the same time it was also so graphic they can't read it again. ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽ ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽