yuuzora

Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Your feelings do matter though. I apologize Yuu-chan for stepping in and I would think you probably won't or don't believe your feelings matter no matter who could or would tell you. But...even if you didn't believe me now or ever, it doesn't stop the truth of the matter being that your feelings have and will always matter. I'm sorry you've had to grow up with someone who treated those precious feelings otherwise, but every feeling you have felt and will feel IS important. All the hurt, sadness, anger and rage from incidents past and present are valid feelings. I hope despite all the pain you've been through and are going through doesn't stop you from ever simply trying to express your feelings now and in the future, cause you are precious and stronger than you know. I'm just sorry you had to be put through such circumstances (by someone who's supposed to family or close to you) to show the kind of resilience you can have. ❤️

yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah, I understand that's the logical course. Maybe it's that I don't really know how to emote anymore? Funny that I think writing this out is a way of lashing out. Maybe even starved for validation? So I should thank you for hearing me out.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ This one is so used to either being non-existent or the target of blame, so attention is not something I tend to like having. Since it is abuse, and this one is aware it is, I think lashing out is a way to get my story out there. Maybe as a chance there'll be an opportunity to escape? Generally I would write this out and just not post it, but I decided to here. Honestly it's kinda like a safe space. lololol. So sad. XD----------------------------------------------------------------- I do appreciate your kindness. I will try to get better about all this.

Rose Mommy ® @wei_ying Such things take one step at a time. I think writing is especially a great way to get your feelings out when you feel you can't say anything or are working on how to put things, I have done it before with my twin when I didn't know how to explain to here out loud what I felt-----------------------------------------------------------------I don't think it's sad that you have a safe space, even if said safe space is somewhere or something you normally wouldn't expect. And as I said before writing can be a very useful means of escape, and if it helps you get those feelings out without harming yourself or others, well, I think that's a win to me. And try not to worry too much about writing or posting your feelings here, after all, tons have done it as well including me and that's perfectly normal and fine ^^.-----------------------------------------------------------------Take your time to heal and get better, change won't happen overnight and with the amount of trauma and abuse you've suffered it honestly will probably take longer, and that IS perfectly fine. I know you know baby steps are important for things like this and I hope you can be kind to yourself as you figure things out ^-^

Aka-san @redhawk I fucking love this, lots of em out there