Mommy’s Random Thoughts

(6:58 PM Fri.) Went to an assisted living home today with my family to visit our aunt Eleanor. We met up with her other two sisters and our cousin and her husband to keep her company...maybe it's a bit too TMI? But I feel like ranting because it makes me sad and mad all at the same time. Our dear aunt Ellie is neglected (and in a way abused) by the daughter she is staying with, the woman locks her in the basement and deletes/blocks peoples phone numbers from her phone. It was only today that our aunt found out the reason she never got calls or was visited is because the daughter she lives with tells people they can't visit and chases people away. Our aunt even cried when she saw everyone gathered together to see her as she doesn't get to see her family much anymore, but we had a great time together and were even able to work out plans together to try and get her free from her evil daughter. Besides the seething rage I felt boiling inside me (I adore elderly people), today was a fun day filled with lots of laughter and hugs (especially for Aunt Ellie). I was also glad to see how clean the interior was and how genuinely attentive the staff seemed. I used to visit old folks homes a lot and talk, sing or read the Bible to them if they wanted, and some of the workers had an attitude written on their face and the place(s) just didn't seem good, but I'm glad my aunt Ellie has a good place she's staying at rn. We are planning to try and visit her again soon ^^ ❤️

(5:22 AM Thur.) Father's Day is fastly approaching and I still need to work on my card for him. Our mom loves to decorate in themes and this year our dad is having a fish theme (he loves fish to death). I was originally going to make another pun card like I did two years before...maybe the jokes were a bit dark? (No pun intended for what's coming next) Because those who don't know (probably most here lol) I am mixed black and white (my dad is black). So one Father's Day I made a card that said "you are the Father" on it (imitating a paternity test) and another in the shape of a milk carton that said "thanks for coming back, Happy Father's Day!" For those who maybe wouldn't understand...it is said about the black community (and even joked about by themselves) that their dads leave (abandon them) with the excuse of getting milk...so I thanked him for coming back after getting the milk. Why did I decide that'd be a funny card to give? Idk, but he did laugh, so it's cool! XD Now I need to figure out what kind of fish I'm making him and what pun I can put on there. I also hope our mom can find a way to take our dad and us fishing as he always talks about wanting to do so with us, she isn't sure we have the money...but either way, we'll have a great Father's Day with him! ❤️

(4:49 AM Sat.) Baby brother came home yesterday bearing gifts for us as his older siblings. My baby brother has a little business going on around our neighborhood cutting peoples grass and trimming their bushes or even taking out their trash for them. He makes a ton of cash and is great at saving...pretty sure the kid has 100+ dollars in the bank, little guy had $99 in cash inside his wallet alone XD. But our baby brother has money he keeps in the bank and cash he uses for miscellaneous reasons, and yesterday he brought me this Pusheen plushy *insert happy crying face here*. He apparently was talking our mom's ear off about how excited he was to see our reactions, so cute! And now I am off to get a job so I can properly spoil him back as I've always dreamed. And don't worry! He brought our other siblings stuff too XD. He got our eldest brother a snack as there were no other items he wanted from the store, our eldest sister got a Patriotic Stitch plushie (she adores the little alien), our second eldest brother got a Reptar plushie (yes from Rugrats) and our second eldest sister got a Patrick in an ice cream cone plushie (she loves SpongeBob and ice cream so it's a bonus). I swear that's the last of the siblings (baby brother and I are the last two XD). We love our gifts and gave him lots of kisses for it and I love him so much. ^^ ❤️

(8:11 PM Mon.) We had a fun Father's Day with our dad yesterday. I meant to take a picture of the decorations since I said our mom did a fish theme, but I never did lol. Our mom also hung up gummy worms (both regular and sour) up on the ceiling by fishing line to act as bait, when our dad saw them and realized it was candy he immediately said he's "going fishing" and started to eat the decorations XD...though we can't blame him since we joined him and ate some of the decorations as well. We couldn't afford to go fishing this year, so our mom bought fishing games and we spent the whole day playing them and winning prizes. I meant to take a picture of the gift table as our mom went overboard and packed the table full of gifts, but I'm happy as I won everything I wanted sksksk. Our dad enjoyed playing with us and receiving his Father's Day gifts (edit: and cards. I decided to make mine in the shape of a fishing rod and attached bait on it by fishing line). One of those gifts was a remake of a shirt he had when me and my older siblings were kids (I was just a baby when they made it), our mom dipped my older siblings hands in paint and added it to the back of the shirt and mine was a baby foot print. Since we are older now we re-made it, this time with our baby brother's footprint added on as well, he enjoyed the shirt and is still wearing it today as well. It was a fun day celebrating such a wonderful man! ❤️

Wanna know why I comment? I'm jealous of how you portray your relationship with your family and it's wholesomeness. Rose tinted glasses, I'm sure... However, it does sound pretty sweet. Enjoy that, as I'm sure you do. Sounds like a father's day any dad would be lucky to have. :)

@yaasshat Happy Belated Father's Day to you, Ya-Ya! I want to apologize first and foremost as when I post I don't mean to make anyone feel jealous or sad about their current situation or relationships of people they have around them or whatever it may be. :( But, I want to say that I am not exempt from family problems. I'm not going to lie and say that it always is or has been sunshine and rainbows, even though we all have a very close relationship since even when I was a kid, we WERE NOT and still ARE NOT exempt from the occasional spats, fights or issues. It's just that I don't like sharing such personal information even if there was a problem, cause I don't feel like burdening someone else with any feelings, plus the fact it helps me learn to go to them and be honest about how I feel and gives me and them a chance to help all of us mature and listen to one another. So, please know that my family argues and has problems sometimes like anyone else's does ^^, I can tell you though that we have all put in the work to do better for ourselves and each other. It wouldn't be so "wholesome" as you say if we never try for each other everyday. Translation: we are where we are today because of the work we put in to maintaining it, it isn't the way it is just because. I don't know what your family is like, but I hope whatever closeness you may want and desire for yourself will come to pass. You just keep trying everyday for yourself and your family, cause that is what is important is that you try first and foremost ^^. I know it can be hard to...but I have faith in you Ya-Ya, it'll be alright :3. Apologies for this getting so long and being sappy, but I love you! Even if I don't know you, I don't need to to love you. I'll be wishing you the best always and thank you!

It's a happy jealousy. It's ok for people to have a little jealousy, there is a healthy way to do that, I promise. I'm not sad in the least(Well, maybe for other reasons that have literally nothing to do with what you post.).lol It's more like things I'd hope to emulate and imbue unto my children, that's all. I gather there are no perfect families, but there are elements worth taking note of. My upbringing is done, but what I can learn to give to the family I'm making, that's worth being jealous for and not just over, if that makes sense.