Why are you single?

I don't like or want to go into details, but I have immense trust issues due to the abuse in my life. My first 'romantic' relationship was from a narcissistic abusive 'nice guy'(before I knew what a nice guy was). I was an innocent, naïve Irish Catholic girl... so I was an easy target despite being physically stronger than him... the next person I gave a chance was pretty average. Weaponized incompetence, selfish, thoughtless, lazy, and had little empathy over the things I've gone through. Especially when I was losing my career right before his eyes, he only cared about how it affected him. With all that trauma and the trauma I'm still in... and the war related PTSD, etc. I'm everyone's emotional support and the doer of things to the extent that even when I was severely ill with Covid, I still had to work. Yet I make so little money I'm stuck where I'm at. So the TLDR is I have too much trauma and am not in a good place mentally, physically, or financially in my life to burden someone with all of it.

@yuuzora Damn just saw this and I am sorry you had to go through all that crap. I pray you heal from these tragic events soon and get back to a better place.

@yuuzora I will take time to appreciate the effort you put into letting the people around you know how you feel. Life is like jojo. It's pretty damn bizarre. Joking aside... Every moment you're alive, you are as strong as you can get in that moment. The fact that you can't just up and change fate, means that we are always at our best, sometimes we just can't see it. My point here is that, you've come a long way. Nothing can stop you now. You are always strong. And I believe that you will in time, heal those wounds. They have to close at some point. Just don't be like me and decide to salt the wounds.

Probably because I've been holling up for almost a year aaaaand I've got other priorities right now, stuff that matters more to me

It doesn't matter if im the sweetest guy on earth.. it doesn't even matter about my looks.. girls who like me eventually get unattracted to me.. sometimes I think I'm cursed to never find true love

I know how it feels of course, but look deeper. Being a Lone Wolf is nothing to feel bad about at all. Not being chained to such a thing like love, the freedom... I, recently, am certain I've found this true love, but... I have to carry the burdens that come with that, and so does she. To be honest, sometimes I am actually envious of the people who accept a life without it, and there are thousands of people out there who would agree. My point is: Don't feel bad about being alone when you're searching for your love life. Instead, enjoy that freedom while it lasts. Because if you stay strong and keep trying, you will eventually find it.

I can live being single for the rest of my life personally now. Attaining inner happiness is my one true goal now. A life with no regrets. Also I have high standards ngl. If you dont look like an anime girl walked out of a manga then Im not gonna be interested. I know it sounds cringe but I like my women with a pretty face. ❤️

I'm just not really interested in looking, I wouldnt mind finding someone and if i did i would be happy of course, but im not interested in going out of my way to actively search, rather i wanna spend my time working on myself and sorting my own life out first, if i found someone whilst doing that then great, if not then no big deal, I still have a lot of time ahead of me so no rush, besides, i prefer just making friendships with people and creating lasting bonds with people to enjoy my life with and not messaging people just for the sake of potential romance