Mental Illness (Mental Wellness)

@siruboo Sounds like the voices you hear when you begin to wake up are facets of your subconscious, which is most active when your brain is asleep. For some reason your subconcious isn't fading into the background in time when you regain consciousness

one time i know that was non earthly (a voice that i just heard that actually fits) was when i had the radio on and i was laying down and then i went to another world. i could go into detail but basically i was just swimming and it was so weird swimming and i could breath under water. i was listening to the radio that was on irl. where i was was real but things could be be made out of thin air. that was only like 5 min.

about 6 years ago my ex partner got an abortion behind my back and told me it was a miscarriage me being the idiot i was back then believed her and we eventually broke up after this i was distraught and emotionally broken and living alone being with my thoughts was nightmareish and i turned to drink and drugs to numb the pain but after about 6 months i was drinking a full bottle whisky a day and doing cocaine 24/7 i used all my money on substance abuse due to it i ended up evicted and homeless for 3 months after the 3 months i got my self sorted and clean and once i got my life back on track two of my friends actually told me she got an abortion cause one was with her for emotional support so needless to say i punched the male friend in the face for keeping it from me for so long for a while when ever people brought it up i broke down in tears the subject still hurts me but i can talk about it a little easier needless to say this has caused a permanent mental scar that i dont think will ever heal