Suicide

For me death has always been just nothingness. No relief, not an escape...it just takes away all my options to be better, and I would like to know if I can. In my case is just thoughs like that that keeped the suicide idea away. For better or for worse, life is just unpredictable, so the good options can appear or disappear at any moment. Every person needs to hear something different, and I wish I could be good giving encouragement words...so I can only say don't give up, there are still things to explore on your own life to make it better, even if it is little by little.

@KaWaiiSoCKs, I've done that before years ago. Problem is there are some things that can never be changed no matter your outlook on life, things that only get worse the older you get.

I've had the occasional thoughts about it throughout the years but I've been close to an attempt only once. I'm still struggling with depression but at least I've resolved not to kill myself any time soon. ( If I don't manage to fix my life by the time my parents are dead though, I'll probably just buy a one way ticket to Aokigahara )

Well, I tried to drown myself a couple times, and have an issue with cutting..I'm in my senior High school year right now and I am so afraid to go college. It's like I'm not really capable to live on my own as well..

Suicide is not a form of weakness. Really, people who don't feel much empathy shouldn't contribute to this subject honestly. Pain is pain. Just because you are feeling some type of pain does not make you less of a person and weak. Just because you have overcome your pain does not mean you can judge other's pain as less and deem them weak. That's kind of a shitty thing to do. I can agree that suicide can be a bit selfish if you had people witness your suicide. They would have to continue their life with a memory of you killing yourself. That would very lead to trauma. Pretty fucked up. Anyways, here. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org or 1-800-273-8255 if you want to call directly. You may not have anyone you can talk to but it's still best to not keep it sealed away for long. The worst you can do is let your pain/depression sit there and consume you while doing nothing about it. Sure, it's very draining and it's okay to cry about it but keep those legs moving. Wouldn't you be curious how your life would change? It may seem bad now but everything change eventually. Hardly anything stays the same forever.