Vent

My rant is the long grocery store lines for me and my 10 little items in a hand basket vs everyone else and their overloaded steel carts

I'll post this because this is the forth attempt I've come here to post this and not done it. I'm going to stop caring now. I'm done crying over you. I despise even thinking about you and you weren't even in love with me to begin with; what kind of person moves on weeks after declaring their love to someone nearly everyday for two years, then move on literally a few weeks later. I know and understand others do this, but it hurt me greatly, to the verge I was crying everyday for two weeks. You knew my situation. You knew I couldn't understand or figure my emotions out after the hell of a year I had. I hope whatever you're doing now; who you're with, I hope you are true about your feelings for them because your half-assed feelings for me in the end, really baffled me. Even when I offered to be your friend still and I checked up on you; you had the audacity to ignore me, but you check my updated statuses? what's with that? Anyway. I'm done. I'm not going to think about, the fact that I sent and bought you a sentimental gift from the heart. You ignored my message behind it. All it made me realise in the end is--- I wasn't in love with you. I made the right decision to try and be friends with you instead. I don't like the idea of stringing people along, but I'm sorry if it felt like I was doing that to you. I didn't do that for two years. I tried to be friends and I didn't want to rush into a relationship, if I didn't feel anything. I don't know why I should apologise for that? I'm sorry, if that may of hurt you. I was direct about that from the very beginning. But sorry for ranting. I need to get this off my chest now, after having it bottled up for three months.

Tired of life i just want something to come along and change it. Idc how it could be a tornado destroying my house and causing me to move or just take me into the sky along with the house that would be cool. I just want something to change.. sick of being alone but not wanting anyone around, taking care of someone just to watch them eventually die, and getting harassed by people i dont even reply to. Its like why even keep trying i obviously dont care. U need a reaction that bad? -w- i dont understand people almost as much as i dont understand myself, but i dont think i want to understand either tbh, both kinda scare me

Whether that comes to pass or not you've been a good friend to me and that's all I can ask out of you KuroK. Best wishes my dearest friend.