Random thoughts...

@solid snake, a concert that everyone dresses up for aka u have to be practically naked for. u only go there for the clout. [edit] @hamme, (first, what kind of nickname do you prefer or have that I can use?) is 3,200 per month okay, a lot or...? maybe go if u can stand crowds, just have fun and put negative stuff on hold for a while. <3

@solid snake, well, you can always try another film festival. they seem nice. just not this one in particular imo. Staying at home is also nice.

There is no point looking for something you know will never be there. But ill look anyway cause every time i think im ready to give up something in my head tells me that its out there somewhere. Its funny when you get to the point you want to give up but wont let yourself even tho you know its pointless and that your basically just standing on the edge of a cliff yelling out into the void expecting someone to hear you even tho you know that you've been all alone the whole time, and that there is no one within earshot to hear your cries

Nope, at least nothing worth talking about lulz Just life ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and emotions that will pass or become numb over time from constant neglect

^ is right. Anything is worth talking about. Don't bottle everything up. At least talk with someone close or write them down.