Random thoughts...

That sounds more like u are talking about a mechanical one. I wish you luck & patience in this matter.

That does not seem like a very healthy relationship/personality, sorry to say so. Not sure what else I could say since I don't really have any right to comment on this subject I am not familiar with. Hope, then, you make the best decisions you could possibly make for yourself.

You ever have one of those moments where all the things in your life are finally going well for once? ...yeah me neither

^ then take a small break and think about what would help you mentally, emotionally and physically. And awww, leave the poor birds be. When they will want affection, they will screech for you. Probably. Hug a teddy bear or smth. @Panda-kun, that sounds too unrealistic. Cant relate.

lmao are u trying to make me blush? thanks for the smile u bought to my face. You need to be patient with yourself, give your little head a bit of rest and do anything you can to make ur life a better one. You most probably deserve it. Don't be so hard on yourself, man.