Random thoughts...

Loneliness is a void, an absence that takes up too much space. It is silence that grows loud, filling the room with echoes of what isn’t there. It presses in like deep water, weighty and endless, making every breath feel borrowed. It suffocates because it isolates—not just from others but from yourself. Without connection, your thoughts become the only voices, looping in endless circles, stretching moments into lifetimes. There is no hand to anchor you, no voice to remind you that you exist beyond your own mind. Loneliness is nothingness, but not the peaceful kind. It is an aching, hollow vastness, a hunger that has forgotten what it craves.

Hit the nail on the head for me... "A hunger that has forgotten what it craves.". Very succinct. Made me have a brief epiphany. Maybe... I don't know anymore. It's been a minute since I've actually delved into myself, since at a certain point I just ignored it and lived life on autopilot. Now onto the why... That one need not be said. But, mine is a mix of things. Clinical depression is a bitch, though I count my blessings as it's not been debilitating as I've seen with others. Still, it's been such a huge hindrance in life. ADHD has been a bitch, too.lol I wish it was fun like you see on reels, all goofy and airheaded shit.lol It most certainly is not. However, I truly hate placing blame on any particular label, even though those labels do help give some semblance of reason. Anyways... I hope that was just a descriptor and not what you're dealing with, but thanks for sharing @verucassault

Oh thank God sweet release! I shot some stuff into concrete at work and had these fuckers in my left eye all day!

I suppose that's less ideal than my current situation of trying to change a flat, having the jack slip, then having the jack just decide "You know what? Fuck this! Imma break, biiiitch!!!". So, currently waiting on a tow truck just to lift the car so I can put a damn spare on for the low price of $95 and the eventual replacement of said tire. Good thing it's only freezing rain and snow, because I'd hate to be dry and warm on a sunny day... Meh... Still ain't concrete in the eye. Edit: I need a drink and a cigarette... Life, am I right? Aha...

Man I'm just constantly tired. That and lower back pain that is a constant. Good thing I'm on PTO for half the month.

And the beat goes on... It's been fun watching the steam on my windshield, but sadly the tow truck is finally on its way. Who wants to place a wager on something else going wrong today? Any takers? lol

@yaasshat You've always been the voice of reason round here for many seeking council. You're your own master and I desire nothing more than your success. I don't want to repeat platitudes, just glad you're trucking along like the rest of us! Your luck is always being pushed it would appear. I am thankful at least that you haven't quit. You, Curly, Sobo, Yuuzora, and both Joes. Ya'll seem to be hitting the redline in life more often than not. Been proud of Sobo for the progress he's made over the years, though I can imagine he's still encounters setbacks. Joe Mama is finding his way to a new career and I genuinely pray that it leads to something he can truly be proud of. Though he got himself booted off here awhile back I still continue to think of Nat's situation. Him battling his mental health as well as other disabilities left the man truly isolated. I could tell he was slipping further off the deep end towards the end. People in that situation when attempting to reach out to them can feel like engaging with a rubix cube. Every day something twists or turns within the labyrinth of their mind that either resets them back to square one or completely closes out others' genuine attempts to assist. Sadly people like Nat are more than a few it would seem. I can't stop worrying what their life is leading to. I desire them to succeed in a way that transcends the misery they've been afflicted by. There are others whose names I won't say simply because I feel they've made it clear they are made uncomfortable when someone like myself broaches the subject of their hurt directly. However to those individuals my feelings are just as strong. I hope they can appreciate that I do care even if it seems to have no logical reason for why I should. Why a complete and total stranger in a world of countless others should even bother to think of someone they never knew in person. Of course I'm well aware that words are cheap. My feelings ultimately can't undo other people's suffering and, because I'm no saint, I lack the authority to break people's cursed state of existence. In the end I can only offer condolences and faith in something more than this repeating cycle.

Why the kind words @gabriel_true ? They just seem a bit unprompted. I know you sort of explained and I do appreciate it, but my mind always over analyzes crap.lol You were on hiatus for a few days(You're usually pretty regular on here, that's why I say that.) and returned with this in tow. I hope all is well with you and yours.