yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
I'm so fucking mad at myself right now!!! I thought I was doing well, weight-wise, even though I'm not capable of counting calories(I have really bad dyscalclia, it's like dyslexia but with quantity and numbers) I thought I was at least not eating a lot. I only eat twice a day, and I don't eat huge amounts of anything. Literally just normal proportions. But I still gained 8kg! Like... I can't exercise the way I want because of a shitty nerve disease, three medications cause weight gain, and now I have to cut my food intake even more just to maintain! Like... this is the fucking worst. I now know why people want so badly to relapse on their meds! This weight gain bullshit is merciless. So anyway, just putting it out there... I have to say I'm back at the 93kg I was before. ;n;
Shizuki Okabe @healthy_walrus Please try not to feel like it’s your fault. Weight gain as a result of your medications and ailments isn’t your fault.
yuuzora @yuuzora Aye, you're not wrong. I just wish it wasn't like this. I used to be a really avid hiker. Like days long hikes along the forest and ocean sorta avid. Now I could barely walk 15 mins without risking nerve damage unless it's something like swimming to take the stress off the joints. Anyway, I have to cut my calories more somehow. I can get a little hypoglycemic, but I'm sure I'll be able to configure it. I just gotta cut out most western foods and stick to my Japanese diet as much as my budget can allow(since fish is expensive). Only thing I think I will really miss is cheese. And ain't no way I'm going that vegan route, because vegan cheese is an afront to the lawd and veganaise is by far the most disgusting thing I've ever eaten. And I'm counting nattou, too. Anyway... it still sucks. I know I can do better than this. It isn't healthy to be heavy set like this. So I've gotta do everything I can to mitigate the things I can't do anything about.
Shizuki Okabe @healthy_walrus I see why that’s frustrating for you. Switching from hiking in the forest and seaside to being more cautious even during a small walk. Trying to become healthier is understandable, just remember to also be patient with yourself while doing so. Cheese should be enjoyable. The whole concept of vegan cheese seems like something that was made up as a punishment, and the word veganaise sounds like an insult from a wizard! XD
yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah... just can't shake the feeling I should be doing more. I've come up with the eating twice a day thing, so I'll just half the food portions. I am gonna try to get my bestie to help me with meal prep. I have a bigger kitchen, but she has better baking skills, so I'm sure we'll come up with something.
Yeah, Veganaise is a brand of vegan mayonaise and it tops the charts for most disgusting thing I've ever eaten. And I've eaten raw scorpion(tastes like old, dried out cheddar cheese), nattou(fermented soy beans, tastes like the smell of a garbage can on a hot summer day), and worms(expectedly tastes like dirt, but I made a lot of money for a kid that day.) So anyone who tells me they like veganaise is immediately put into the 'never trust their cooking' list.
Shizuki Okabe @healthy_walrus Yes, I understand what you mean by having the “I need to do more” feeling; however, I hope you won’t go too hard on yourself by halving portions, especially since you’re at risk of developing hypoglycemia. Meal prepping with your best friend, on the other hand, seems like a great way to go about things. Having a larger kitchen area and improved baking skills certainly makes for an awesome party lineup. XD
And it’s rather frightening and impressive how something as terrible as Veganaise is rated even worse than raw scorpions, nattou, and worms!
yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah, if you're brave enough to try Veganaise, I'll be curious to know how much it made you gag. XD
I'll be texting my bestie now to see what day works for her. Probably Saturday, since it's a low work req day, assuming I get everything done on Friday. I keep A LOT of spices and herbs in my kitchen, so I'm gonna see how easy it is to make curry roux blocks for ourselves.
If you're wondering, I grew up in a highly abusive, food-insecure situation. I learned to make my own bow and arrows to hunt snakes and quail at like 9 just to try and put food on the table. I also stole from the grocery store, not proud of the fact, but it's a truth nonetheless. So that's part of where my adventurous foods came from, and probably a bad relationship with food in general.... Did you have a good upbringing? Any siblings?
Shizuki Okabe @healthy_walrus If I have to psychologically prepare myself before eating Veganaise, that cannot be called food anymore XD. Homemade curry roux blocks sound very appealing indeed. And I am really sorry that you had to go through such an ordeal in childhood. Having to hunt, steal or just make ends meet at nine is quite a burden for any child. I do not blame you for what you had to do to survive. But about myself, I have a younger brother. I have both positive and negative things to say about my childhood, but nothing like you described.
yuuzora @yuuzora Lolol. I really would rather eat drywall mud than Veganaise.
Yes, the roux blocks are easy enough to make, but it takes at least 30 mins of constant stirring. And I prefer hand ground spices, which takes a longer time. I do have a coffee grinder I can use to break the big stuff down and a mortar and pestle to break it down to a powder. Don't worry, I clean the fuck outta the coffee grinder before and after each use so the spice and coffee don't mix unless I want them to. (spiced coffee is amazing, if you haven't tried it. My preferred mix is cardamam, fennel seed, cinnamon, and nutmeg)
Yeah, my childhood was fucked. Basically in every way one could think of. But anyway! Aw, I'm glad you have a baby brother. It's an absolute pain to be the oldest(I'm only 3/5, lost me brother in the rebel war though, so it's just 4 now) but there's nothing more rewarding when they turn out alright. Are you close with your brother? Sorry to hear you've had to deal with hardships, too. I don't like to play the Pain Olympics. Suffering is suffering. The only thing I can ask of people going through anything, is to grow from their experiences.
yuuzora @yuuzora BTW, are you a memer? And how dark is your sense of humor? I have to ask before I get myself into trouble. lol
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
So glad to hear you're doing well! Bless your kind neighbor. <3
Random Messages for Miss Wei_Ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying
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Random Messages for Miss Wei_Ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying
Happy 4th/Independence Day, my lovelies! I have wifi today due to a neighbor, so I thought to come check in on everyone and see how y'all are doing.
I'm sorry to hear about your tabby passing away @yuuzora and the fires/heatwave you've had to survive through, but I'm happy you're still here fighting and got to enjoy a nice BBQ after a rough time ^^. Don't be worried about me over here though! My family and I are doing just fine in this heat (fans and ac are on constantly)– heck! We've been sitting outside in this weather to work on our tans XD, but today was rainy and we've been having fun with the neighbors watching fireworks. As for food though, God has truly been faithful and has provided a way for our mom to buy what we need daily, as well as using our neighbors kindness to help us even though they don't know we need it. We enjoy a delicious polish sausage hotdog, Mac and cheese with French fries for dinner today!
@healthy_walrus Thank you, my dearest knight. I pray your days continue to be blissfully quiet and hope against hope that your work load will become at least somewhat lighter than what you said you've experienced lately. While the bots may have become bold in my absence, I have the most dedicated of people still here who fight on my behalf to keep us free from these bodyless beings. <3
@sakurakiss It's also been a bit strange not to log in everyday, even if it's just to momentarily check on everyone. Thank you for the well wishes! I have been trying to do better at self-care...and it's definitely a process, but I'm nowhere near being in a slump like how I was in the past, so one step at a time, y'know? I'm sure you have finished organizing things with your aunt? It sounds relaxing, I like doing stuff like that ‐ but then again, I'm someone who finds almost anything relaxing XD. I love you very much and miss you too, Kura-Chan. <3————————
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@gabriel_true I still don't have wifi, my dearest Gabby, but I am very touched that you all miss me so dearly. Like, I do believe that all of you love me and care for me...but it's so surreal that there are people out there that genuinely miss me so much, y'know? And miss what I have to say too, whether it's just randomly talking or me having my sappy/encouragement moments, cause I don't think I'm someone that's the most eloquent person or even the one that has anything of genuine substance to say...in real life I have trouble finding my words just like my mama, but I tend to write letters when I can't say everything I want to, which is probably why I find it easier to write to everyone the way I do here, those are my genuine thoughts and deepest feelings towards ALL of you: to be happy as one can be in a world like ours and to be prosperous in all that you do. Now, this message will be long, but oh well! As for your recent blessings ‐ I'm so very happy to hear that the LORD God has provided for you! I always pray that He takes care of my friends just as He has done this family of mine, so whenever I log in to see or hear you guys being suddenly provided for or just finding peace where you are in life, it truly touches me because it's like God is reminding me He hears me through you all <3. I also don't think you're trying to garner sympathy...and even if so, I don't think it's all too bad? Sometimes you need to be vulnerable and just want to have someone understand, which isn't an issue, I'm just thankful that I apparently seem to be that person for a lot of you here. I think you are absolutely deserving of it, simply because of the fact you aren't seeming to be prideful about this sudden gift. Trust me...I understand how you can feel unworthy- and in a way, all of us technically are (not saying it to be a downer), as that's the whole story of the Bible: we sin greatly and all take, take take, but it ultimately isn't us who chooses who is deserving of what, it's God's decision. Maybe He trusts you to receive such a great financial blessing rn, which is a very exciting thing! Especially as my own family have been waiting our whole lives to be financially stable - but, God still has us in a season of trusting Him, so it's what we will do cause one day He'll move on our finances. As for you not living up to the man other's think you are or should be - I understand ^^. But everyone is like that. I say that not to make less of how you feel, but to remind you you are never alone in how you feel. I too have sometimes felt like a fraud cause people always have seen me as a cheerful person who loves unconditionally- but the reality is that I'm just human like anyone else. ALL credit to how I care and love the way I do is to God and Jesus, because on my own I am just as bitter and angry as the next human lol. I've just always prayed for God to keep my heart and to give me the willingness to want to be kept, which is the key thing about our relationship with Christ: willingness. So, I pray you are ALWAYS willing to grow better as we all are through Christ Jesus, Gabby, and just know that this blessing was meant for YOU. Also, thank you. As I've said before...I never truly think that what I say is important or holds weight on other people's hearts, but I'm grateful that whatever it is that I've said has been able to be encouraging or helpful to you. I'm so happy you got this monetary blessing and I pray all my other friends bank accounts are just as blessed as yours has been, I love you very much!
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Yuu-Chan! I love you and thank you for leaving me such lovely messages. ❤️
yuuzora @yuuzora Always, matey. I'm glad to hear you're doing okay. Though through trials and tribulations, you maintain dignity and compassion. Those things are incredibly important to maintain in this day and age. I wish you continued success in your mission. I'm sure whatever you're working on will turn out well.
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying I’m always thankful I end up better than expected too, I really appreciate your lovely messages though! I enjoy reading them when I come back ♥️. Not saying it doesn’t get hard sometimes…even if it’s just mentally or emotionally, but I have been through enough to understand feeling the things I feel are perfectly okay, but it’s truly no proper excuse to forget compassion for others just because I’m struggling. It’s the way I was raised and taught, and even when it’s hard, I’ve seen it do good in my life and others, so I’m just thankful I can still spread kindness and love despite my circumstances. Thank you for the well wishes! I know it will turn out just fine, I just gotta try to stay on path.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
I can't stand those people. It's not even good marketing to slide into dms begging for comms. I usually yell at them a little then teach them how good marketing actually works. I'm a comms artist myself, so I took it upon myself to learn some stuff from YouTube and random marketing blogs.
I've never commissioned people like this so I can't comment on if they're any good. Definitely don't hesitate to block them, and report them if you feel like they are scammers or Ai slop users.
The "Artists"
Campari @mishi00
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The "Artists"
Campari @mishi00
Occasionally ive been getting nonstop friend requests from a bunch of people who are alleged "artists". They will add you on discord talk to you for a bit then ask about an OC and if you would like it commisioned.
Has anyone actually bought a commission from one of these bystanders and if you did was it real or just ai slop?
On another note can we start banning these people? They are obviously scammers and catfishers
Campari @mishi00 Yeah ive been doing that everytime its pretty sad honestly how many have been popping up, im always excited to meet new people so I get a drop of disappointment whenever I know its one of them
yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah, I can understand the feeling. It's either bots, scammers, both or people who have no clue what the fuck they want. It's why I have a rule of not accepting requests from someone who hasn't introduced themselves in the slightest or if they don't regularly interact with any of my peeps, moots, or other. Luckily there are genuine people on here, even if they're hard to find. I hope they're worth the time it takes to sift through all the aforementioned iijits.
Campari @mishi00 I think I remember you did the same to me xD I dont blame you honestly I know people are shy sometimes thou xD
yuuzora @yuuzora Are you sure you mean me? I don't have a friend request from you, or messages, and I don't see you on my Discord.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Ahoy everyone, just a little Patreon update. You can join for free to see it for yourself. Being a member helps me to reach new people, so even the free range does a lot of good for what I'm trying to do.
https://www.patreon.com/rakashael/posts/sneak-peek-162807973?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Ah interesting. I meet many people who don't like tea, largely because they've only had that cheap cut grass called Lipton. lol. I know many people dealing with bpd, it is a lot of work to manage it. Do you feel like you're managing it well currently?
jrsharona @jrsharona
jrsharona @jrsharona
Read your profile. I don’t like tea, but I do have borderline personality disorder as a mental health condition that has affected my life in many ways.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Depends what you'll like. I really like The Hu(A Mongolian Metal band), Alien Weaponry(A Maori Metal Band), Bloodywood(A Punbaji Metal band), and Baby Metal(Japanese Metal Band) lately.
Metal Band Suggestions?
BT_777 @bt_777
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Metal Band Suggestions?
BT_777 @bt_777
Anyone have some good metal band suggestions? Greatly appreciate any groups formed AFTER 2000. Anything prior, I most likely know, lol.
Thanks!
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Yesterday we had to say goodbye to my sweet ginger boi Teddy. There's nothing in the world that can ease that pain. But as a surprise for my little brother, I'm creating a Kofi Service for a limited time. The donations will all go to him on July 9th(his birthday) to ease the financial debt he incurred trying to save our precious kitty cat. In exchange for a donation, you will get a drawing of one or more of your pets with a simple background.
Here's the link:
https://ko-fi.com/corutanic/commissions
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
The JPLT is good if you plan to live or work in Japan to put on resumes and stuff. But as far as irl speaking, I hear it isn't as great because spoken Japanese is far more casual and often uses plenty of technically incorrect grammar and pronunciation. What sources did you use to improve your grammar? I've been trying to find something where I can practice sentence building but most things are insufficient or I don't have a lot of time to use them. :(
Serious Learners
Lishifu @hakutaku
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Serious Learners
Lishifu @hakutaku
I passed N2 Last year (145/180) two months after making preparations for it, but I don't think I actually learned Japanese hah~
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Awww! Of course, matey. I'm so glad to hear from you. Godspeed, I hope you continue to be blessed as you have blessed us. You're our little ray of sunshine in the dark internet abyss. The banisher of spam bots! lool.
The kittens got their bell collars today, so as soon as they adjust to them, we'll be letting them loose in the house. I'm prepared for madness. :)
Random Messages for Miss Wei_Ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying
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Random Messages for Miss Wei_Ying
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying
Thank you lovelies for all these beautiful messages.
@kuharido I leave for awhile and you start to abuse me? How cruel of you XD, but I choose to hug you since I've missed you dearly. ❤️
@yuuzora I hope you stay safe out there, cause I know things have been hard enough for you lately already, however, I'm happy that you are still alive and kicking. I hope those kitties are doing well too! You all deserve nice things. As for me and the family, we've been staying safe in this heat, but there's still not much food in our house most days – but we aren't worried cause the LORD'S been providing as always.
@willworkforisekai You don't need me to teach you the ways of chasing away bots, I've seen @gabriel_true and @sakurakiss have been keeping up my business well.
@all my lovelies I miss you guys so much and pray for everyone everyday! Just know you are never forgotten though my physical is absent from you. Sad news is I'm still not officially back online yet, our wifi at home is still out, but since we've visited our aunts house today, I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to come see how you all are doing. I love you all very much! ❤️
Floral Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you very much, Yuu-Chan, I appreciate you very much. Aww~ I love cats and only ever got to see kittens before, never got to hold them myself yet, but I'm glad the kittens have a good caretaker looking after them.
yuuzora @yuuzora
yuuzora @yuuzora
Hm. I see. Even just messaging a person back and forth is good, since I don't think I can hold complex conversations. I focused too much on service vocab(y'know, like ordering food, checking into a hotel, etc.) and didn't spend any time talking about more complex things. Are you good with kanji? I've only got about 100-200 learned so far.
jaryuu @jaryuu
jaryuu @jaryuu
I see. Usually I only read and listen to it, but that's already plenty helpful. Besides acquiring vocabulary by reading stuff you like, the brain eventually connects the dots of grammar and natural ways of expression start to become possible with low effort. Though once you reach that level it's probably necessary to jump into real time conversation in order to keep growing.
