mirai_k

Idk about drawing them, but choosing between them is easy: definitely Kuudere over Tsundere. Sure, the Kuudere may be slow to open up, but they're nice so it's worth the effort. Tsundere.... ok they may have some nice part hidden within but omg trust me from experience, you do NOT wanna deal with a waifu with anger issues. Just... noooope never again!

I get how you feel. I've had those feelings too but there a few people in this world that I can't abandon no matter what so likewise, I won't be going there either. And yeah, feelings can be hard to deal with. In my case, looooong story short, I once had love in my life and got to watch it go to hell in verrrrry slow motion over time and despite trying to be good to her, be caring, be loving, communicate, compromise, etc. in the end there was nothing I could do. By the time it was over, I was relieved that it was, but still, it was like having my heart forcibly ripped out and stomped on. I felt dead within. The worst part was the realization that girls my age were already pretty much mostly taken/married plus unlike me, very few girls my age are into anime and/or gaming. I haven't given up or I wouldn't be here ofc heh, but realistically the powers that be will probably be signing my name in a Death Note before I find someone to date in this life. The point of this is, like you, I'm someone with lots of feelings too and I get how badly it sucks to be filled with love, caring and romantic feels that you want to share with someone special, yet have no such person to share it with so I truly do feel your pain on that. But your feelings are what make you, you, and though I don't know you, my gut instinct is you're a good person so don't seek to change that wonderful kuudere nature of yours because someday, someone will appreciate it. Also, the good news is.... You're much younger than me and there are LOTS of single people out there for you and since you don't have a preference for men/women, your options are just that much greater for you. So you will find some special, just hang in there. And if ya need to talk, message me, reply here, send smoke signals, wave some semiphore flags, or communicate using whatever works for ya. I may suck at helping myself, but I do a decent job trying to help others feel good to make the world a bit happier. Best of luck, I hope your life improves soon.

You totally forgot about making a hidden shrine to her in your close complete with incense candles, stolen personal items (it's fine if you see the items as things she invited you to take in some non-verbal way) and your favorite poster-sized picture of her. Otherwise great relationship advise! You should do this professionally if you don't already.

Interplanetary dating is for amateurs. The real pros go for chrono-dating. If you search enough time lines, you'll find some where your dream waifu is single and willing to date you. I'm shocked that guys like Dr. Strange don't have a harem by now.