I wanna kill myself

Yeah man it's tough, honestly I'd just try to take a break from the site if it's antagonizing your depression like that. It does wonders, trust me.

I mean the way i've been able to avoid thoughts like these is because death is even more meaningless than life, and not only that but it could be more painful than living we don't really know what comes next, it could be nothing, or it could be worse either way we don't have a choice once we're dead, being alive gives you choices which could lead to a better life where you could get enjoyment out of being alive, sometimes life sucks but sometimes it doesn't but if you're dead you'll only ever know the bad parts of life and would've never lived through the potential good parts of life

@hakutaku okay... unnecessary, if your just going to leave comments like that then dont even comment or show your face @gabrielg2582 and I agree with what tigereyes11 said, look... life isent easy and maybe this site is feeding into the depression idk but killing urself isent the answer... I've had the thoughts myself too, whether or not people want to admit it, alot of people have atleast came acrossed the thought once in their lives. Things in life arient easy, they never will be, from the moment were born were in a uphill battle. You will not win every battle, their will be times when you fall flat on your face, its not a matter of if but when, the only thing... the only choice you have is will you get back up on your feet again, everytime you do you come back stronger. Try to just focus on the things that make you happy. Accept who you are, I used to always try to be someone I wasnt and I hated to look in the mirror because I wasnt like the rest. Thats not how it should be, you should wake up in the morning happy with the fact of accomplishing another day, be happy with your accomplishments throughout the day, even simple ones like having cooked a good meal, having beat a level in a game. Its not always easy but you have to enjoy the little things in life just as much as the big. The human mind tends to dwell on the negative in life instead of the positive... proven fact. No matter how tough it is continue to push forward and be happy with the person that you are no matter what anyone else says. You can do it bud, I believe in you! :)

Enki is savage. Rad. But tbh. The guy didn't reply ever since he created this thread. So I assume he either just poofed from the site... or worse, decided to barbecue himself. I would offer no platitude. It doesn't help any.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255) You should get in touch with someone who can genuine help you if you really have those thoughts.