I wanna kill myself

I think such words of rejection upset him. After all, he sent links of zoom/face time meetings to many people on this website to have fun and to relieve his depression, however most people said "no". He was even warned. I have never shown my face @wolfneko

I honestly get suicidal thoughts too. Most of it is in the moment emotional shit though. I won't shit on you because of it. With that said, you need to try to be happy. Sometimes it isn't easy but feeling bad for yourself is a deep hole.

never being born at all > suicide but, its important to remember that its less likely that you literally want to die, and more that you just want your current "life" or situation to end. i constantly struggle with suicidal ideation (I'm not actually suicidal, but the idea is nice) and it helps me to keep that in mind. things change, and your current situation, or "life", will naturally end, as all things do.