Dark Colonel

I guess the reason I'm single is that, when I try to move on I look for a woman like my ex- girlfriend but no matter how hard I try to move on. I still hung up on her. At first it was to fill a void left my her, then I started having a lot of meaningless, but I ended up hurting more people then moving on. I stop dating for a couple years because of a girl I had a one night stand with ended up giving me a son who I love. But there was a lot of drama that shouldn't have be there I'm a very understanding person. I try to start dating my baby mom for our son, but she was not interested in dating me or trying to work things out. Then after a while I just started working 80hrs a week at a dead end Job, just so I can travel to see my son and provide for him and that left me with no real time to date. When I was able I keep my son a secret because I didn't want to be rejected because I have a kid, like so many times before. But recently my ex girlfriend came into my life again and my heart was flooded with emotions I had buried long ago. I was happy to see her but that made me realize I'm still not over her even after 4yrs being apart I'm still not over her. She ends up making me fall for again but realizes we have got caught up in the passion of the past then leaves me again. Hey that was a lot longer that I expected lol