Confessions

Wow, well I wasn't trying to top you and can't. I had way too healthy family life with just a few social issues growing up. but My first serious gf (I was 21 and she was 16 and it was legal in my state and her mom was ok with it. Met her through a mutual friend, we started dating right away) She took my virginity too. She was bipolar and other issues. She cut regularly whenever she was upset. Was raped by a friend of her dad when she was 8. Is on lifelong ssi because of it and depression. Blocked out the memory for awhile, later told her dad about it who called her a liar. She loved her dad till that moment. At the time was obsessed with the Beatles, Marilyn Manson, Tool, and Sex Pistols. Especially Marilyn Manson. She took about every drug she could find, hated being sober. Had been trying to get pregnant since she was 14. When she was 14 her (supposed) friends hooked her up with this older guy known as "One legged Charlie". I dated her for 6 months in all but 3 months into it... She cheated on me with a mutual friend. I took her back but she later broke up with me for the same guy. He didn't want to date her so she hooked up with some homeless guy she met. Brought her over to my apartment and fucked him pretty much in front of me. Dated him about 3 weeks, then another guy for 2 weeks. Met a runaway 17yo guy and brought him over to my apartment. Fucked him in front of me too, next to my bed. Got into a verbal fight with her about it and told her I was still in love with her. She and him left, I called in sick for work and looked for them. Called her mom a couple times to see if she went home. @nd time her mom just got off the phone with the ambulance. I ran 2 miles to the hospital. She was covered in vomit and mumbling about "The God of Fuck" (The Marilyn Manson loge shirt the dude was wearing that she was with) They got drunk and he left her on the road near some tracks. Didn't help that she hadn't eaten in 2 days and was doing speed before. Even after she got out of the hospital was still obsessed with that guy that just left her there. A few weeks later she dated another guy. I met him when he came over to my apartment. He sat in the corner huffing nail polish remover. Later he and a friend tossed a bike into the road from an overpass. My ex kept a bottle of his blood and another of his semen around her neck when she found out she was pregnant by him. He dumped her and ran off to NY with a 13yo girl. They were sleeping in an alley and got bit by rats. Police brought them back. I had never met that girl at that point but her parents showed up at my apartment crying and threatening me to tell me where her daughter was. Oh, and my ex was a vegetarian too at that time. She used to order a Big Mac without the meat. I cried myself to sleep for almost 6 months after we broke up.

Yeah just go for different men. I ran into a few "bitches" in my time that were not nice at all despite how sweet I was towards them. I am still trying. I know not all women are bad too. Same with men.

http://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/e35/13116804_555645811276967_141698521_n.jpg?ig_cache_key=MTI1MDEyMzk2ODY5OTUxNjY1MA%3D%3D.2 on a lighter note, lets look at how cute my husbando is

my bf is nice to me now but we have a long bad history including him cheating on me (not sexually) i just think being with a girl wouldn't be so dramatic plus it takes a girl to know how to please a girl xD (same with men :P)

Yeah, I wanted to "save" her but I was too inexperienced and made too many mistakes. I drove her away in the end without meaning to. She turned out ok though. Her first born son is around your age now Lamby. (a couple years younger) @Lamby, how do you maintain an online relationship so long? I've tried just short term till I can travel to be with them but they seem to lose interest easily. Like If I don't talk to them constantly, they lose interest or something. I talk whenever they want to talk but I can't always think of stuff to say all the time to initiate conversation. It feels like if I don't act like I'm obsessed with them then they think I'm not interested or something.

well i was 12 when the relationship start and i only had one bf prior so when you dont understand what a real relationship is (as iv never seen it first hand only have one parent) when he would visit and have to leave it was heart breaking and after living with himn for 6 months and having ti leave i hated it and missed him so much when its all you know, its easy its a better question as to why my bf never left me as he was older and im sure horny XP my husbando in his natural habitat https://img.ifcdn.com/images/846b9b5b811c7c0f898b4ccb1ee9c320552edfc23235b1a97c2be32c42047012_1.jpg