I can even find a best friend, let alone a relationship. What's wrong with me?

I'm that girl who has never been really noticed. I'm awkward, shy, and corny. But I like to think I am a good person, and a good friend and lover. Yet, I don't have anyone to open up to. I spend my nights alone, sitting on my laptop or playing video games. I cry myself to sleep. Heh. I do have people who call me their friend, but these same people don't even bother to talk to me over half the time. People tend to just leave me behind, and I don't understand why. I've given up on a relationship, because I'm constantly having guys say they like me, only to then go around and change their mind when nothing has changed. Guys around me say they like women with long hair, big asses, and confidence, neither of those 3 things which I have. So I'm out of the running for that. But more than anything, ANYTHING... I just want a best friend. I want someone to watch anime and play video games with. I want someone to talk and geek out over Homestuck with, I want someone who I can open up to and talk to everyday. Someone who cares about my life. I go to anime conventions, and end up abandoned by the people who I ended up going with, so I walk around, looking at the groups of friends together with a envy and a sadness. I walk around, sit, I'm just alone. I just want SOMEONE. And I've tried. I've tried reaching out to people. I've made accounts on many different websites, including OkCupid, VampireFreaks, and this one. I guess I'm just too damaged.

Well to answer your first question, nothing. Nothing is wrong with you, from the looks of it, it may just be the people you hang out with. If they make you feel so unimportant you need to find people who will, shyness is s bitch but from experience(I'm a bit shy in person) it doesn't last to long when you find people who you can be yourself around. It's a challenge specially when a person has that shyness but if people "poke" at you enough for you to open up, those are the ones that you want to be around. Hope this helps! If you'd like I'll be your friend from the AZ.

I see ppl on your page all the time...I check your page to see if you added me as a friend yet. Hang in there, you'll find the right person.

Sorry. I'm just not big on friend lists. I rather have people talk to me. It reminds me too much of Facebook when people accumulate a large of friends but don't even talk to them. I want to connect with someone, not have them on a list. :( I only like adding people to lists if it actually means something you know? I'm just bad at networking I guess. o_< Sorry about that.

no one wants to talk to somebody complaining or being negative, for instance maybe your should change your picture to a brighter room with you smiling

I have a slight smirk in my picture. I also can not help that my room is dark. I had all the lights on I could. And that's the thing I hate, it's as if I am not allowed to be frustrated with life. If I show the slightest frustration, no one wants to be my friend. Every one goes through really hard shit, and it's so hard to fake a smile just to get people to like me. I wish I could meet people who saw that I was sad, and help cheer me up. If that's the case, then I'm never going to make friends. I've had clinical depression for 10 years now, and yes there are times I do complain, and that I'm negative. But I still try my best to make other people laugh, I work hard, and I love to have fun. I am a good person. So I should be worthy of friends right? Negative people are worthy of friends. Only when you maliciously bring upon others do you not.

Sorry if I came off strong. I just constantly hear that, and it depresses me. It makes me feel like I'll be forever alone. I'm not exactly an optimistic person. But that doesn't mean I can't have fun either. >_>