Posting Messages For Gabe (@Gabriel_True) Until He Comes Back To The Land Of The Living

@gabriel_true Day 95: We ate rice, beans and chicken for dinner, it was really good! I actually enjoyed the really crunchy/flaky parts of the chicken skin, but it's because I enjoy eating crunchy/hard (not burnt) foods/snacks. - You Should See The Way I Eat Hard Candy: Ying

@gabriel_true Day 96: I slept in most the day...that's not good lol, I need to go to bed earlier again. - I Need To Be Stopped: Wei-Wei

@gabriel_true Day 97: ❤️

@gabriel_true Day 98: My eldest sister says that 1 AM is actually when it's the next morning, not 12...so no, I'm not late today and I didn't forget to leave you a message :3. I love you! - It Feels Great To NOT Be Late: Your Not Late Friend

@gabriel_true Day 99: We ran out of food again, isn't that exciting! I can't wait to see what my God provides next, because I know it'll be good. Other than that, nothing much has been going on lately, Gabby, just chillin'...though I have been finding myself playing a lot more games recently, but I guess having nothing to do does that to a woman XD. I don't play anything difficult, just cozy open world games, those management idle tycoon games, or dress up one's, because I don't think I could handle any video games that are serious/require too much work lol. I still prefer a good board/card game over an electronic one though. - I Hope You Are Having Fun With Games: Wei

@gabriel_true Day 100: Happy 100th day of posting, Gabby! Nothing much happened today, just watched over our grandma today because our dad had to go get a surgery done. But, I didn't get to watch her long because she woke up around the time our parents came home from the hospital XD, but, luckily I was able to get her out of bed, in the bathroom and dressed before our mom came home to have to worry about it herself. - I Hope You Are Doing Well: Ying-Ying

@gabriel_true Day 101: I'm tearing up in a closet rn, Gabby. I bet at this point you are wondering what the crap is up with me and this closet all the time lol, but I sit in here because it's getting cold in our room and the closet is warmer than out there. Anyways, I usually hate to talk about problems I'm having cause I feel really burdensome to others when I do it...but, as you aren't actively online, doing so is a bit easier. Me and my baby brothers Birthday is coming up soon, idk if you remember that it's March 1st, but there's the date for you–but, idk if I'm happy about it? It's not that I don't want to celebrate it...I really, reeeeally do, but there's a thing that God has instructed my sisters and I not to do right now that I can't explain in detail yet (if at all) that is not allowing me to celebrate how we traditionally do...and it's really hard for me. There's a plethora of other things that are making me feel really sad right now that isn't just that, and it's just irritating to me. I end up getting stressed out by myself because I know my self-doubt/hate is really a cycle and it's something I am trying to fight against, but I also feel like I'm not trying hard enough. I know that I need to surrender it to God, but I feel like I don't actually know how to surrender it wholly unto Him and it irritates me–I irritate me. God has promised me (individually), my sisters and my family so many great things, and yet I feel like I'm not truly worthy of such things. This process God is having my older sisters and I going through is extremely difficult at times cause I feel like it'd be easier of a journey without me, but, I know I shouldn't be thinking that way BECAUSE I know what He's said about us three being together for such a time as this. I've also been thinking about cutting my hair cause I feel like it's beauty is wasted on me. I don't take care of it properly, and it hurts me because I truly want to, but I never do it like I say, and so I start to tell myself God wasted His time on creating such long, curly hair for someone like me...which is really rude to Him because-to reiterate: I KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE. I really am tired of thinking this way...because in all honesty, I can't bring this mindset with ne where God wants to take me, but I feel like I don't know how to properly give it away to Him. - I Love You, Gabby, and I'm Sorry For The Sad Post: Wei-Wei