Struggling past your end time

I'll try to be as simple and as concise as I can, I reached the conclusion that this site doesn't offers me anything of relevance anymore, instead, it is dragging me down and making me struggle needlessly. In the past, I left the site because there was no other choice for it, I was frustrated and felt dejected at how the childish play played out, I even asked a perma ban on myself, then s time came for introspection, I nearly died undergoing surgery, that changed me a lot, I started questioning even more a lot of my faulty ways on life and even on my personality. After some months, I decided to give it another shot being my new self, then, I would reveal whom I was and see how it played out. At first it was fairly exciting and fullfilling, managed to re-encounter myself with a lot of friendships and even made a few newer ones, then the time for me to reveal myself came, mostly due to some users blackmailing me into it, so I did and the results were mixed. People changes, sometimes, people let's go of the past, sometimes... Sadly you can't throw everyone on a mold and get a similar result every single time, that's part of what humanity is about, I'm not a victim though, I fought back, perhaps I should had shut up, curled into a ball and pretend I didn't cared about anything thrown at me. Sadly, I care, people takes advantage of that and aims exactly where they know it hurts, even people that were "friends" every now and then feel the need to remind me that I'm frail and sentimental, well, sorry, I can't change it all, some things are meant to stay within my core self. I won't be returning to MO again this time, there's nothing left for me here, my time has been long come to an end, yet I kept logging in, year after year, it's been almost 6 years now, I'm thankful for the friendships I made here. I'll request a permanent ban in a few days, with a proper letter for Sephiroth, I'll check this thread for a day or two to reply to any questions. If anyone wishes to keep in touch, ask me for my discord, I'm always thrilled to make friends. One last note, we all make mistakes throughout life, just remember that before you criticize someone next time. I wish you all a happy, long and eventful life, lots of people here deserve that much. Special thanks for the people who stuck to my side through the years. Yasshat Tsunpaper Hakutaku-Enki Teacup Charles There's a loooooooooot of honorable mentions to make of pleasant individuals I like, like Sanfi, panda, snake, maria, mary, choco, veruca, arc, etc etc, if somehow I missed your name, I probably just forgot, my mind is kind of fuzzy right now. It was a fun ride, thank you all~

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Ghost @kuharido I'm sorry!!!! ;-; It would be hella hard to go through my 60 so contacts list to skim through them all, I do appreciate you ghost, I hope I can continue having an amicable friendship with you over the years~ ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ

Tiki @tiddy I just took some time to think about the current state of affairs, also, after figuring out some answers to some difficult questions I had, I realized I didn't really needed MO or the regular dating sites at all... There's literally nothing keeping me tied here, in the past there was always someone or something, not now... So~

Cassian @draig Thanks~ I wish you a long and happy life~

I understand wanting to leave if there is nothing tying you to this site. It really sucks seeing someone who has been here so long want to leave but it seems like you gave it a lot of thought. I don't know about what drama is going on, but consider coming back if it dies down, or just posting every once in a while to let people know how you're doing in life. I've never been a fan of the finality of goodbyes, but maybe I am just too sentimental :(

Bold but I support your decision. Too much time here isn't a good thing. But please do as my schnookums said, come back sometime.