Reasons to Live

Ghost, I know it's a lot to live up to, but I try. I mean, he gets it all without ever having to actually have a job. Some day, some day.

I don't know how to function normally without these thoughts always being on my mind. I can't help it, and all that professional stuff just kinda masks it for a bit

ye try tinder or somethin like that if you want human contact get outside more, go to conventions ect easy fix honestly

Lee, Ever meditated? Better yet, do you know what meditation is?

Yus go outside don’t think Tinder can suck nuts though

Those are very achievable goals, Lee. I don't know the scope of the professional help you've gotten but have you shopped around? I went to probably five doctors until I found a therapist I worked well with.

I have already tried Tinder but that doesn't really work (No matches after about 6 months on it, just people looking for money or drugs near me). As for meditation, that's pretty hard for me as I have ADD (Also medicated for that) and can't concentrate or relax that well still.

go to a convention or something or watch sitcoms so it feels like your not alone

As for professional help, I have been between 3 different doctors and 1 therapist, as well as a counselor in High School and an on-campus counselor currently in Uni. And 4 different ADD meds and 2 different antidepressants.

Ghost, That too. Gotta figure it out. I'm currently a guinea pig for finding what antidepressants work for me and will soon enough be going to counseling to better understand how to function. Can't give up. Hell, I had a bit of a mental break down about a week ago and kind of hinted at want to kill my self(Bad mojo that antidepressant was. Shit was wack, yo.), my wife admitted that actually got her a little irritated that I'd think so selfishly.... Point being, find your reason and know that you may be anothers reason too.