What's the hardest part about dating YOU?

It's hard dating me because it's either I love too much, or I love too less. it balances each other out with every relationship I've been in. I put my work first and the person I'm with second so I can at least pay for my bills at the end of the month with my art commissions and job at the station. My questions seem like a confrontation. My anxiety and depression get out of hand so I ask the most stupidest questions for reassuring. I get weak when the simplest of comfort is given to me. I give in to my negative thoughts without a fight. i struggle every day to make another person happy that will always say the same lines. ''I won't leave you.'' - ''I won't do that'' - ''I'm not like them.'' - ''I love you.'' You believe it. over and over and over again because you truly want to be with ''The one''. Only, you repeat the cycle without knowing that you drive them away.. Welp. I got a little too far

I tend to set some weird expectations for myself, that my partner might even find weird. >.> And those expectations are honestly dumb too, but I still do them. I get my partner confused and sometimes irritated because of that. <.<