So I've been having a bit of trouble...

I think yaasshat has some good points. I haven't played the romance game as much as him, but I do realize that, like most things, time is a good way to help you forget your ex and it's even better if you stay busy. When I broke up w/ my ex, going back to school and staying busy was a blessing and it helped me focus on something else. I didn't have time to mope or think about the past. So like how yaasshat said, it'd be best if you could find something else to do that would take up your time, it'd be better if it would improve yourself, like learning another skill or doing some traveling. It's DEFINITELY gonna be difficult at first, but within a few weeks it won't be too difficult and once a year has gone by you'd barely even be thinking about your ex anymore.

Daamn... Been there bro. Find more friends that you can enjoy life with. Time heals most things. And ofc healing can sometimes have scars so what ever you're feeling right now is fine. Just let it all out. Its all okay. I just shifted all my shit to focusing on what I wanna do, explore and learn. Also loving myself more.

oops, I thought removing my posts would delete thread. I'm feeling a bit more sure of myself now thanks to the comments. I wanted to delete thread since I dont think it will do me much good seeing myself vent about things. Thanks for the advice, it means alot. and Yass, I was not trying to put blame on her for ever. Was only in the moment when it happened. I only blame her for not telling me what was wrong or not telling me a reason. I kind of feel like I deserved a reason for what happened. ANd yes, I think the soulmate thing is cheesy, but when I was with her, it really did feel like it. Im not looking for any soulmate. Thats too much of a dream these days.

Yeah that's what i'm trying to do, still need a lot of time though. Oh I see OP was removed >_> but still.