Vent

It might also be that you fake your happiness so that your beloved ppls can have a fun Christmas. It’s seems like Xmas isn’t what it was before. Now it’s a day to celebrate overcoming this shitty ass year. Incoming 2020#3… JUST DROP THAT METEORITE ALREADY SADISTIC BISH

All I know is pain https://c.tenor.com/yKcuCc2L2RgAAAAC/ahhh-ahhgh.gif

@kuharido Same here in my job I feel like quitting ASAP though I got 27.5 work hours a week instead of 22 work hours a week. I feel my boss likes me, but some coworkers and other people sound jealous of me. Pain-in-the-ass micromanagement, solitude, some coworkers doing things that make it possibly worse than me, women being too shallow, boring, superficial and condescending, etc., etc., etc. I often struggle being OCDish in aiming as high as possible organizing and cleaning damn hard enough to make others cringe or freak out, but not always. Some days were sickening or very weakening or very hectic. Sometimes I let others take their chances. We even had moments when some appliances or even the whole area blacked out. But on the bright side, the whole business kept upgrading itself dramatically. I wore a reusable mask almost every time rapid test free and vaccine free while using natural healing, being more introverted and performing minimalism. I'm also struggling with supporting my family and my Japanese language teacher and her family with their errands and life concerns. But I feel I might be one of the lucky few Millennials, hopefully for a long while.

@meisterman1985 https://c.tenor.com/8sC8Rw7fzU0AAAAC/tuesday-anime.gif

Feeling I'm floating in this vast ocean we call life. Just drifting away. Nothing seems important, but at same time it does. Overwhelming waves crash and spinning me around. Waters rage, hard to breathe Wear my heart on my sleeve Hesitant, motions bleed Swirling thoughts drowns my mind What am I What to do I hear voices I feel voiceless I feel my body drained I feel something I feel like nothing Still alive? Maybe

Ugh, I'm going to make a guest appearance on a podcast on Wednesday. I've had months to prepare, but I didn't prepare. I am such a fool. I just got too much shit going on...

This week sucked and a wrench got thrown into the weekend which totally threw everything askew. On top of all that we were ghosted on a wedding appointment we had today for his tux. I can already feel this upcoming week is going to be grindy. 8/ I would want to take some time for myself to recoup time lost, but something tells me I'm probably going to get hit with the rona soon. We think Arc's dad might have it again.