Seriously

I am seriously out of weed atm.... does that count???? But seriously serial, I am always down for serious conversation with another enlightened observer (wow that sounds really full of myself but oh well its what I be thinking) For me thats the most fun kind of topic, but sometimes I wanna just be stupid to. I kind of drive myself crazy thinking of the interconnectedness of all being, about loving kindness and compassion, about how I want to be a person who encompasses these values, and if I get to deep into then it almost becomes counter to itself, thats when I say to myself.. I say "Bill, lets light up a spliff and get stupid" and then I remember why the serious stuff matters.

Seriously i dont understand how someone who wears the same colthes if i spell it right if not sorry or does not take a bath for 6 month's or change colthes for 6 month's,and does not have a dime or dollar to they name has no type of income at all that homeless and has no plan on trying to better them self's or they life but yet they can always,get a girl to be in a relationship with and that girl will have her own place a car a job and she will give that person a free place to stay money give them a ride and everything,else and 3 or 4 of my friends were like that they always had girls wanted to be with them and i cant get my foot in the door without that person slammer it on my foot and, i have income and i am trying to better myself and life and i take baths everyday and i wear clear colthes and i am looking for a relationship for the right reasons,they looking for relationship's for a meat ticket and this has been going on for about 10 years now and it pissed me off to no end seriously what the fuck is going on.

Yeah i get it that woman think they can change that person but they cant that person has to be willing to change them self's before anyone else can and i dont mean,all woman in the world i meant woman in the city i live in and all the woman i ran into here they treat me like shit or they play mind games with me so i am loselty,the fight like i dont deserve something like that in my life.

Yeah i know life ait fair that is a lesson i have learn the hard way and yeah the friend i am talking about wear the same colthes and did not take a bath for 6 month's,also was a pothead i guess woman think that cute this is why i have given up on trying to fine someone because it's the same wherever i go the nice female that are looking for a, serious long trem relationship they to busy trying to change guys who will never change and in the mean time nice guys like me finish last story of my life and it has not change.

Well i get that nice guys are boring i guess that one of the reasons why i have not been able to find to anyone is because i am boring as hell and i dont mine trying something ,new out as long as we can both agree on it and idk what goes though woman head's that was my opinion about theu must think pothead are cute and idk you but i doubt, you will give me a chance because of the long distance thing.