Mommy’s Random Thoughts

@yaasshat Happy Belated Father's Day to you, Ya-Ya! I want to apologize first and foremost as when I post I don't mean to make anyone feel jealous or sad about their current situation or relationships of people they have around them or whatever it may be. :( But, I want to say that I am not exempt from family problems. I'm not going to lie and say that it always is or has been sunshine and rainbows, even though we all have a very close relationship since even when I was a kid, we WERE NOT and still ARE NOT exempt from the occasional spats, fights or issues. It's just that I don't like sharing such personal information even if there was a problem, cause I don't feel like burdening someone else with any feelings, plus the fact it helps me learn to go to them and be honest about how I feel and gives me and them a chance to help all of us mature and listen to one another. So, please know that my family argues and has problems sometimes like anyone else's does ^^, I can tell you though that we have all put in the work to do better for ourselves and each other. It wouldn't be so "wholesome" as you say if we never try for each other everyday. Translation: we are where we are today because of the work we put in to maintaining it, it isn't the way it is just because. I don't know what your family is like, but I hope whatever closeness you may want and desire for yourself will come to pass. You just keep trying everyday for yourself and your family, cause that is what is important is that you try first and foremost ^^. I know it can be hard to...but I have faith in you Ya-Ya, it'll be alright :3. Apologies for this getting so long and being sappy, but I love you! Even if I don't know you, I don't need to to love you. I'll be wishing you the best always and thank you!

It's a happy jealousy. It's ok for people to have a little jealousy, there is a healthy way to do that, I promise. I'm not sad in the least(Well, maybe for other reasons that have literally nothing to do with what you post.).lol It's more like things I'd hope to emulate and imbue unto my children, that's all. I gather there are no perfect families, but there are elements worth taking note of. My upbringing is done, but what I can learn to give to the family I'm making, that's worth being jealous for and not just over, if that makes sense.

@yaasshat Oh! Yes, that makes perfect sense. I'm sorry I assumed...I just got worried seeing that sometimes, but now that I know I am good XD. I think that's just beautiful then ^^. You are already doing right by them and yourself by simply wanting that and trying to act those things out as well, I know it won't mean much coming from me, but I am proud of you for trying. Keep it up, Ya-Ya! ❤️

(12:59 AM Mon.) Finished my adorable baby puzzle, isn't it cute? It's one of the prizes I won during the games my family and I played on Father's Day. Also, meet the cat I s̶t̶o̶l̶e̶ was kindly gifted by my eldest sister. I named him Lofi (pronounced low-fee. Fee is said like fee in legal fee). She made it and he was so cute my brain said snatch it while my fingers twitched at the thought, but my reasonable side said not to take it-but I did anyway! So now he's mine! It's alright though, she's very strong and I know could have taken it from me any time when she saw I hid it under my shirt XD...but she put up a weak fight and was giggling the whole time she was "wrestling" it from me, so therefore she must want me to have it UwU. I really do plan to pay her for every crocheted stuffy I s̶t̶o̶l̶e̶ borrowed from her when I have the cash, I do hope to support her projects and business some day. ^^