Conflicting Feelings

I've been stuck in depression since my ex broke up with me, it feels like ice running through my veins. But in these past two weeks I just look back on it and I get angry, and I'm a very calm, nice guy with complete control over my anger. I get angry to the point my muscles flair and my body is itching for a fight, I get tunnel vision and everything gets hazy. I've tried to get over her and ended up having another girl use me to forget about her ex only to have it quickly end with her saying she never meant anything and only wanted fun for a couple nights. Now I feel lost and used and it hurts to the point I rarely feel like leaving my own home.

I know where you are coming from. I experience some of what you have. Is not good to let that anger built up. You have every right to feel the way you do. But you can't let it get to you. You have find something that you love doing and forget it all. You can't let those who hurt you screw with you even when they are out of the picture. You need to vent all of it out and start a new. I did a lot of talking to get over my situation. In the process of venting I broke a wooden sword but at least I didn't take it out on anyone. Is best to take care of things before some close to you feels that back lash. That's my suggestion.

At least you've had a ex to speak of last girl I dated was a dick and turned me down when I wanted to go steady. Oh and I've never had a girlfriend just lots of dates so at least you've had that. Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all they say. @kyetge I've legitimately thought about doing that without the cape.

FIrst of all, that's great you are sharing your conflicted feelings! That's the first step in getting through this. I've been through this kind of depression and it isn't easy at all. It took me about 2 years to get through it and have a happy life. I say you may not be worth it to one girl's eye, you will be to another :) ! The bad things like this adds on to EXPERIENCE. This makes your heart stronger~ I don't think your ex is the person worth suffering for because if she makes you angry, she deserves no feelings from you when you can have feelings for another person who treats you right! Always ask yourself, "Is this the reality you wanted?" And if it isn't, then live for things that'll make the reality you want~ I believe that happiness comes from within. If you aren't happy within yourself, what makes you think you'll be happy when you're with someone? Also, wIth every pain, comes a lesson. :) Keep in mind that. I know you'll get through this!! FIGHTINGGGG!!