Random thoughts...

and I had friends tell me that I need a tone down my personality, becoming boring in order to settle down finding a wife. However, if I have to tone down my personality, then is that even someone meant for me? 110% me is the best me

You're most DEFINITELY depressed, my man. Ain't no doubting that.lol At least, that's how you come across here. I get it though... You seem to be chasing one thing after the other in order to find some happiness. But, yeah, definitely be yourself, the best version of yourself. Also, don't take marriage advice from those who are either single or have never been married.lol They're looking, too and only going off of anecdotal evidence. (More than likely.). You've got to find what works for you and be healthy while doing so. There's one thing you have that you may not know, experience. That experience, if used correctly, can be an awesome source of wisdom that you can use to better yourself. It's easy to feel alone and unhappy, but it's much harder to just be happy with yourself. Figure that out and you will become more attractive on so many aspects (Family/friends/relationships).

@solid_snake95 As someone who had crushing depression I overcame it with Jesus. I tormented myself for years for being a narcissist. I didn't even like people looking at me out of fear of seeing how hollow I am. I went from thinking I'm the worst thing to ever exist to laying it all down at Jesus feet. Went to chruch today and the preacher talked about temporary satisfaction which I think we all try to find but what Jesus has done for me is given me the complete satisfaction I never thought I would obtain by taking everyone of my burdens away. I thought I was to ugly. I looked around and never seen a narcissist saved. So, I thought he didn't want me. But, he took it all away I just had to stop seeing my mistakes as greater than his love because he showed me they were not. All your burdens can be alleviated today if you give em to Jesus. You just gotta trust him. Only bugging you because I want you to have peace. Jesus will do the trick. Though I had to fight hard to understand how to lay my burdens down I hope and pray it's easier for you. Best way I can describe it is stop carrying what you can't carry if it's crushing you. There is relief. Also, pray to God for a woman. God always went above and beyond when I did that. Seek him and I'm sure he will provide you a woman in dew time. Like he always did for me. You can be a new man today unburdened and you won't have to worry about carrying your burdens into the next relationship. You can be free. Just a thought.

@solid_snake95 u hate me fr but my mum died two weeks ago and life is SHIT for me, but I have learnt a few things from it. my main advice is - take time to enjoy life. Stop worrying about finding 'the one' because it's not easy to find - but I trust you will. PROBS when you stop trying so damn hard. You're funny, kind and sooooo loving (to a fault). do NOT fall for bitches and hoes. you deserve far more. I hope that you learn to love yourself, cuz if you don't, who else will? (i still love u bestie) BUT you deserve to be loved. I'm an ultimate bitch but even I know you deserve love & care, and I wish you the very best. truly message me whenever - i'm soooo down to listen. or call. whatever helps you. <3 <3 <3

Talked to my son about reindeer being a thing outside of Santa and he said "Maybe Santa had reindeer first, a long, long time ago. Like in the 1980's.". So, evidently I was born before reindeer were a thing.lol

Need... Pizza... ...mmm...piiiiizzzzzaaa!

@kuharido Maybe when he can truly understand the weight of it. Until then, he enjoys talks about wendigo and big foot.lol