A question to the world

There was a time in my life where I did not want to go outside where I was developing serious issues concerning my state of mind, however through the use Social websites such as Twitter and Facebook and deviant art I developed serious hikki tendencies are one of my friends were off-line for even an hour my mind would begin to think they have committed suicide. This has led to the destruction of new moves friendships around the world. Mind you, some of the people did lie to me about certain things but that's all in the past. Now I am ready to make a step in the right direction but my question is to each one of you people have you ever felt like you just keep finding "crazy people" on the Internet and it gets to a certain point where you think yourself "is there anybody normal that is female./Male that doesn't have issues with gender or suicide etc?"

Well, the majority of people whom have issues with Gender, Suicide or depression usually flock to the internet as a form of Anonymity and to get their opinions or struggles out without fear of backlash or repercussions. Then again- there are so many reasons as to of why people go onto the internet, Maybe some use it as a form of escape, some to live something they can't in reality, or maybe use it as a form of interaction because they can't or fear interacting irl. maybe some wanna meet people. but the majority are usually here because their scared of reality it seems or have some form of insecurity to a degree. The term "Normal" isn't really all that credible anymore; Everybody has their own issues and sides to them. It seems that people have 3 sides to them; as to of what they are is completely dependent on the person. I personally think that people in actual face-to-face interaction often are trying project the best of themselves. But since the internet is always going to be a place of complete anonymity this might give people free reign to bend the truth or to project the good and bad. Interactions here often don't have much of a relative impact to life as they would to reality. But often the "Crazy people" will often flock to the inter-webs because they can't really project that side in reality without potential repercussions. Now i understand that not all people are here because of the reasons i listed above, but from my experience: Some seem to fit right in those categories. Me? Well-- i'm here as an escape and to be myself, because in reality. i can't really act all geeky or nerd and because i can't really project my Real-side in reality... maybe because i'm scared. Coward probably. But where i live: i have alot of respect and don't really hang-out or work with any other geeky people besides my closest friend. Even so- I'm usually kinda shy or sweet in my real person. But i guess there are just too much factors... Recently i cracked because last year was a very stressful year for me and probably the worst so far. But i'm still steam-rolling and surviving. I flocked to the internet because it was convenient and located in my home. People wouldn't see me here. But i guess we all have our own Skellingtons, Demons and reasons for being on here. Internet is just less stressful than IRL. But Nobody is perfect, Some just have brighter smiles than others.

True and to be honest, the outside world doesn't understand "otaku" they usually refer to us as freaks or more commonly "weebs"

The outside world doesn't understand the need for spider, for flying things with a stinger, for anything they're affraid of for no reason. Don't think you are lame or freak just because some random people just don't make the effort to break their own limit to understand you. There will maybe a time when people will open to this kind of hobby. It's not bad healthy(Unless you're neglecting you by addiction.), it can make someone smarter, there is no problem about being what we are, they are just ignorant, forgive them. People on the internet for me are not freaks until they commit something awfull in real life (Like for other people.) or intentionnaly make people suffer from their act(Wich is a good reason BAN and LAW exist to punish those, even through internet.). What i think is beautiful in a way, it's how people can change and learn things from internet situations that can be usefull in reality, like social interactions, science, logic, and so on. People on the internet know so much about "Sharing" their knowledge without fear and being open minded to new ideas.

None cares but at the same time I think you make a difference. Sometimes I think I'm making things worse being on the internet. I always make it up for anything bad I've said though I've talked to people that think there perfect but I've let out the truth and sorta pissed them off, that's ok. We all have problems and I don't care if people know about my problems, My main problem is I like people too much but as a whole I hate everyone

Well I do have an idea of creating a entire anime in 3-D, however, that just having the world and all items and effects using a 3-D program and lighting etc while the characters are hand drawn

I'd say it only seems like the internet is full of weirdos and freaks because they stick out more than the average people. You just have to step out your door to find 'normal' people.

one time i listened to this freak lady and she said something big would happen to me in the next three months, that was late last year and i thought something was going to happen. nope lol, the only thing that happened was i started to become a little crazy